"Thank you, Miss Neville. Then I will--must hope. Why should I not win
your love, when I love you so very dearly; how dearly you know not? I
will wait patiently; but strive to win you I must. In my dreary, sad
life it is the one bright star to lead me on to better things. I have
trifled away life--hated it at times; but now I will begin to live. You
are going home, Miss Neville, let this tale of my love be as if it had
never been. I will be content to take my chance with others; let us be
friends again, as hitherto. I promise no word of love shall ever pass my
lips. When you know me better, and, perhaps, judge me better than you do
now, then once again I will ask you to be my wife; and then, if you
reject me--well. Then we must never meet again; but while your heart is
free I must hope. Shall it be so?" he asked.
Alas! what could she say? She could not tell him her love was another's
unasked and unsought for, when she was striving to shut it out of her
heart for ever. She could only murmur that she did not love him, and
could give no hope. While he, thinking her love yet unwon, believed it
might be his in the end, and that he had told her of his love too soon.
"You will not refuse my request, Miss Neville, will you?" he asked,
sorrowfully.
"I do not like to refuse," she replied, "and yet I doubt if I ought to
grant it. It will only make both you and me unhappy, because it can lead
but to the same result as now."
"I dare not think so," he said. "Surely God will be more merciful than
to leave my life an utter blank. No mother's love have I ever known;
mine has been, and is a dreary, unloved lot. Is it a wonder my heart
clings to you, loves you so madly? and yet you will not even let me try
and win you; but would shut out all hope. If you loved another;
then--then indeed I would not plead; but, as it is--it is scarcely kind,
Miss Neville; forgive me for saying so."
"Believe me, I do not wish to be unkind," faltered Amy. "I think my
decision would have been the kindest in the end. But enough; it shall be
as you wish, only you must not blame me hereafter."
"Neither now nor ever!"
And so they parted, both sorrowful at heart, both feeling the future
which seemed to loom so gloomily for each; neither daring to look
beyond the shadow even now flitting across their path.
Little did Frances Strickland think while loitering in the school-room
awaiting Amy, that the very meeting she had come to prevent had taken
place.
Just as she was growing impatient, and wondering at the unwonted delay,
Miss Neville entered.
"I have been waiting to make my adieux," she said, "having heard you
were going away, and I did not like you should go without a word of
farewell."
Amy was quite unprepared for this, and looked her surprise.
"Do we part friends, Miss Neville?"
"I can scarcely say yes," replied Amy, "our acquaintance has been but
short, and--and--you have never liked me, Miss Strickland; if you
recollect you almost told me so once."
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