J. Comyns Carr: Stray Memories, by His WifeCarr, Alice Vansittart Strettel
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J. Comyns Carr: Stray Memories, by His Wife
Carr, Alice Vansittart Strettel
Carr, J. Comyns (Joseph Comyns), 1849-1916
I went for an early walk the other day up to the Wengern Alp; all
the mountain in shadow and the pines blacker than their own fallen
image on the grass. I was alone and met no one on the path but the
lads laden with their washed deal milk-pails as they came singing
from every green hill. And as they passed I felt sort of shamefaced.
I was out for beauty, a kind of dilettante wandering in search of
impressions, and I knew deep down in me that they must one day and
another have won impressions I could never gain. No one can be really
intimate with a strange land, can ever really read the face of a
hillside as it is read by those however simple who were born to see
it coloured by the changing fortunes of their life from childhood to
manhood. Nature is so shy, so reluctant to speak if she thinks she is
overheard, but she will sing to herself when she thinks we are busy.
For us who are not artists I think beauty is only really captured in
that way. It is trapped unawares, stolen in the silences of night or
dawn, or burnt into the brain by the fire of some passionate moment
to which it remains as an unforgotten background. Of course the
artist, the poet or the painter, has other rights and other penalties.
‘He that would save his life must lose it,’ and the artist
is always giving up for himself what he re-fashions for the joy of
others. He is like the cuckoo that sojourns in every nest and is
itself but a homeless voice. Even the beauty that he pursues is never
really possessed; it flutters for a moment in his hand and then takes
wing for others to inherit. It is bought so dearly and then sold for a
mere song.
But this is a digression. We were talking of Switzerland, and I do
believe this is one of the choicest spots in it, but of course we
don’t discuss its merits all day. On the contrary, I think we
talk most of the food, comparing the veal of yesterday with the mutton
of to-day, wondering from what strange waters, remote or near, come
those strange fish that masquerade under the titles of the dwellers in
Northern seas. And then we pry into the lives of other lodgers, making
up imaginary relationships among families that are as normally related
as our own--taking a curious interest in characters in which we have
really no concern, and exchanging cards warmly with parting guests,
knowing that we shall see their faces again no more. And all the while
the air is so good, when the weather is not so bad, that we feel well,
which is a long way on the road to feeling happy, and we are sometimes
pointed at as distinguished, and then vanity covers the rest of the
road and we are very jolly.
Yours ever,
FATHER.”
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