*WORK AND MINE ACRE*
There is but one balm for a heartache, and that is work.
Nothing in all my life had left me so stranded; had killed so utterly
the sweetness of all my dreams as this giving up of Eloise. And with no
dream there is no life.
I felt that she was lost to me now: if she were not engaged to Colonel
Goff, there was nothing in me now, I thought bitterly, that could awaken
in her the real love she had never felt for anyone. Yet with all her
spirit, her apparent indifference, and even recklessness, I knew she had
a throne in her heart of hearts for love on a higher plane than those
who love easily. I knew that only one side of her had ever been
revealed, either to herself or to the world; that beautiful as she was
there was a yet more beautiful side to her; and that brave as she was
there were yet deeper depths of bravery within her, a moral bravery
which under the spur of her soul would take another leap, as far greater
than that she took on Satan as the brave leap of Pegasus over the
clouds. I had known her always. I knew what she did not know: that I
was loving an Eloise that was yet, and forever would be, an unseen star
in an unknown heaven, above the head of the man who had never yet
learned to look up. Should I sit still and let him take her, let him do
this irreparable wrong both to himself, and to her and to me? My heart
cowered a moment at the thought of its hopelessness. Then—how wonderful
is the word of the soul unto the soul, the passed soul to the passing
soul, the absent soul to the present soul,—I thought of the words of
Aunt Lucretia: "What would Andrew Jackson do, Jack?" Into my soul came
the steel of Andrew Jackson. With the quickness of the thought came the
change. "_Aye, my unseeing old grandsire," I said, "you shall see
whether I am a fighter or not! ... For Eloise._"
From that moment I resolved to fight. God’s blessings on the memory of
Andrew Jackson!
But I would fight in my own way. For I knew that Eloise’s idea of love
was a love of life and death: she who would ride a mad horse over a
five-foot fence for the conquering instinct of a mastering nature, what
would she not do for love—_her love_—and she a woman? For let it be
writ both of history and life, ’tis woman at last who loves. Man knows
not love. Even as his own life came to him the babe of Love and
Passion, so only can he give that unto another. But she who gave it
being, _her name was Love_! Oh, to win such a love as I knew Eloise
would bring to me; which she herself knew not was there.
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