"Newland, excuse me. I do not refuse it out of disrespect, or because I
do not believe in the tenets of Christianity; but I cannot believe that
my repentance at this late hour can be of any avail. If I have not been
sorry for the life I have lived--if I have not had my moments of
remorse--if I have not promised to amend, and intended to have so done,
and I trust I have--what avails my repentance now? No, no, Japhet, as I
have sown so must I reap, and trust to the mercy of Heaven. God only
knows all our hearts; and I would fain believe that I may find more
favour in the eyes of the Almighty, than I have in this world from those
who--but we must not judge. Give me to drink. Japhet--I am sinking
fast. God bless you, my dear fellow."
The major sank on his pillow, after he had moistened his lips, and spoke
no more. With his hand clasped in mine he gradually sank, and in a
quarter of an hour his eyes were fixed, and all was over. He was right
in his conjectures--an artery had been divided, and he had bled to
death. The surgeon came again just before he was dead, for I had sent
for him. "It is better as it is," said he to me. "Had he not bled to
death, he would have suffered forty eight hours of extreme agony from
the mortification which must have ensued." He closed the major's eyes
and took his leave, and I hastened into the drawing-room and sent for
Timothy, with whom I sate in a long conversation on this unfortunate
occurrence, and my future prospects.
My grief for the death of the major was sincere; much may indeed be
ascribed to habit, from our long residence and companionship; but more
to the knowledge that the major, with all his faults, had redeeming
qualities, and that the world had driven him to become what he had been.
I had the further conviction, that he was attached to me, and, in my
situation, anything like affection was most precious. His funeral was
handsome, without being ostentatious, and I paid every demand upon him
which I knew to be just--many, indeed, that were not sent in, from a
supposition that any claim made would be useless. His debts were not
much above 200 pounds, and these debts had never been expected to be
liquidated by those who had given him credit. The paper he had written,
and had been witnessed by Timothy and another, was a short will, in
which he left me his sole heir and executor. The whole of his property
consisted of his house in Saint James's Street, the contents of his
pocket-book intrusted to my care, and his personal effects, which,
especially in bijouterie, were valuable. The house was worth about 4000
pounds, as he had told me. In his pocket-book were notes to the amount
of 3500 pounds, and his other effects might be valued at 400 pounds.
With all his debts and funeral expenses liquidated, and with my own
money, I found myself in possession of about 8000 pounds--a sum which
never could have been credited, for it was generally supposed that he
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