Love stories; Unmarried mothers -- Fiction; Women household employees -- Fiction
On her part Jennie had sincerely, deeply, truly learned to love this
man. At first when he had swept her off her feet, overawed her soul,
and used her necessity as a chain wherewith to bind her to him, she was
a little doubtful, a little afraid of him, although she had always
liked him. Now, however, by living with him, by knowing him better, by
watching his moods, she had come to love him. He was so big, so vocal,
so handsome. His point of view and opinions of anything and everything
were so positive. His pet motto, “Hew to the line, let the chips fall
where they may,” had clung in her brain as something immensely
characteristic. Apparently he was not afraid of anything—God, man, or
devil. He used to look at her, holding her chin between the thumb and
fingers of his big brown hand, and say: “You’re sweet, all right, but
you need courage and defiance. You haven’t enough of those things.” And
her eyes would meet his in dumb appeal. “Never mind,” he would add,
“you have other things.” And then he would kiss her.
One of the most appealing things to Lester was the simple way in which
she tried to avoid exposure of her various social and educational
shortcomings. She could not write very well, and once he found a list
of words he had used written out on a piece of paper with the meanings
opposite. He smiled, but he liked her better for it. Another time in
the Southern hotel in St. Louis he watched her pretending a loss of
appetite because she thought that her lack of table manners was being
observed by nearby diners. She could not always be sure of the right
forks and knives, and the strange-looking dishes bothered her; how did
one eat asparagus and artichokes?
“Why don’t you eat something?” he asked good-naturedly. “You’re hungry,
aren’t you?”
“Not very.”
“You must be. Listen, Jennie. I know what it is. You mustn’t feel that
way. Your manners are all right. I wouldn’t bring you here if they
weren’t. Your instincts are all right. Don’t be uneasy. I’d tell you
quick enough when there was anything wrong.” His brown eyes held a
friendly gleam.
She smiled gratefully. “I do feel a little nervous at times,” she
admitted.
“Don’t,” he repeated. “You’re all right. Don’t worry. I’ll show you.”
And he did.
By degrees Jennie grew into an understanding of the usages and customs
of comfortable existence. All that the Gerhardt family had ever had
were the bare necessities of life. Now she was surrounded with whatever
she wanted—trunks, clothes, toilet articles, the whole varied equipment
of comfort—and while she liked it all, it did not upset her sense of
proportion and her sense of the fitness of things. There was no element
of vanity in her, only a sense of joy in privilege and opportunity. She
was grateful to Lester for all that he had done and was doing for her.
If only she could hold him—always!
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