Love stories; Unmarried mothers -- Fiction; Women household employees -- Fiction
The trouble with Jennie’s plan was that it did not definitely take into
consideration Lester’s attitude. He did care for her in an elemental
way, but he was hedged about by the ideas of the conventional world in
which he had been reared. To say that he loved her well enough to take
her for better or worse—to legalize her anomalous position and to face
the world bravely with the fact that he had chosen a wife who suited
him—was perhaps going a little too far, but he did really care for her,
and he was not in a mood, at this particular time, to contemplate
parting with her for good.
Lester was getting along to that time of life when his ideas of
womanhood were fixed and not subject to change. Thus far, on his own
plane and within the circle of his own associates, he had met no one
who appealed to him as did Jennie. She was gentle, intelligent,
gracious, a handmaiden to his every need; and he had taught her the
little customs of polite society, until she was as agreeable a
companion as he cared to have. He was comfortable, he was satisfied—why
seek further?
But Jennie’s restlessness increased day by day. She tried writing out
her views, and started a half dozen letters before she finally worded
one which seemed, partially at least, to express her feelings. It was a
long letter for her, and it ran as follows:
“Lester dear, When you get this I won’t be here, and I want you not to
think harshly of me until you have read it all. I am taking Vesta and
leaving, and I think it is really better that I should. Lester, I ought
to do it. You know when you met me we were very poor, and my condition
was such that I didn’t think any good man would ever want me. When you
came along and told me you loved me I was hardly able to think just
what I ought to do. You made me love you, Lester, in spite of myself.
“You know I told you that I oughtn’t to do anything wrong any more
and that I wasn’t good, but somehow when you were near me I
couldn’t think just right, and I didn’t see just how I was to get
away from you. Papa was sick at home that time, and there was
hardly anything in the house to eat. We were all doing so poorly.
My brother George didn’t have good shoes, and mamma was so worried.
I have often thought, Lester, if mamma had not been compelled to
worry so much she might be alive to-day. I thought if you liked me
and I really liked you—I love you, Lester—maybe it wouldn’t make so
much difference about me. You know you told me right away you would
like to help my family, and I felt that maybe that would be the
right thing to do. We were so terribly poor.
“Lester, dear, I am ashamed to leave you this way; it seems so
mean, but if you knew how I have been feeling these days you would
forgive me. Oh, I love you, Lester, I do, I do. But for months
past—ever since your sister came—I felt that I was doing wrong, and
that I oughtn’t to go on doing it, for I know how terribly wrong it
is.
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