Love stories; Unmarried mothers -- Fiction; Women household employees -- Fiction
If she had ever had anything before in her life which had been like
this it might have been easier to part with it now, though, as she had
proved, Jennie’s affections were not based in any way upon material
considerations. Her love of life and of personality were free from the
taint of selfishness. She went about among these various rooms
selecting this rug, that set of furniture, this and that ornament,
wishing all the time with all her heart and soul that it need not be.
Just to think, in a little while Lester would not come any more of an
evening! She would not need to get up first of a morning and see that
coffee was made for her lord, that the table in the dining-room looked
just so. It had been a habit of hers to arrange a bouquet for the table
out of the richest blooming flowers of the conservatory, and she had
always felt in doing it that it was particularly for him. Now it would
not be necessary any more—not for him. When one is accustomed to wait
for the sound of a certain carriage-wheel of an evening grating upon
your carriage drive, when one is used to listen at eleven, twelve, and
one, waking naturally and joyfully to the echo of a certain step on the
stair, the separation, the ending of these things, is keen with pain.
These were the thoughts that were running through Jennie’s brain hour
after hour and day after day.
Lester on his part was suffering in another fashion. His was not the
sorrow of lacerated affection, of discarded and despised love, but of
that painful sense of unfairness which comes to one who knows that he
is making a sacrifice of the virtues—kindness, loyalty, affection—to
policy. Policy was dictating a very splendid course of action from one
point of view. Free of Jennie, providing for her admirably, he was free
to go his way, taking to himself the mass of affairs which come
naturally with great wealth. He could not help thinking of the thousand
and one little things which Jennie had been accustomed to do for him,
the hundred and one comfortable and pleasant and delightful things she
meant to him. The virtues which she possessed were quite dear to his
mind. He had gone over them time and again. Now he was compelled to go
over them finally, to see that she was suffering without making a sign.
Her manner and attitude toward him in these last days were quite the
same as they had always been—no more, no less. She was not indulging in
private hysterics, as another woman might have done; she was not
pretending a fortitude in suffering she did not feel, showing him one
face while wishing him to see another behind it. She was calm, gentle,
considerate—thoughtful of him—where he would go and what he would do,
without irritating him by her inquiries. He was struck quite favorably
by her ability to take a large situation largely, and he admired her.
There was something to this woman, let the world think what it might.
It was a shame that her life was passed under such a troubled star.
Still a great world was calling him.
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