Adultery -- Fiction; Artists -- Fiction; Illegitimate children -- Fiction; Painters -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
“No, but I know it, all the same. I have always known that it should be
so. But when I was twenty-eight and still an old maid, longing to love
and be loved, and Helge came and fell in love with me, I laid aside
all claims on myself and my love, taking what I could get—to a certain
extent in good faith. It will be all right, I thought—I am sure it
will—although I did not feel assured in my inmost heart that nothing else
could be possible. Let me tell you what my friend Heggen told me the
other day. He despises women truly and honestly—and he is right. We have
no self-esteem, and we are so lazy that we can never make up our mind in
earnest to shape our life and happiness ourselves, and to work with that
purpose. Secretly we all nourish the hope that a man will come and offer
us happiness, so that we need not make any effort ourselves. The most
womanly of us, who by happiness mean only idleness and finery, hang on to
the man who can give them plenty of it. If amongst us there are a few who
really have the right feelings and are longing to become good and strong,
and making efforts in that direction—we still hope to meet a man on the
way and to become what we want to be through his love.
“We can work for a time pretty honestly and seriously, and take a
pleasure in it too, but in our hearts we are waiting for a still greater
joy, which we cannot acquire by our work, but must receive as a gift. We
women can never get to the point where our work is everything to us.”
“Do you believe work alone is enough for a man? Never,” said Gram.
“It is for Gunnar. You may depend on it that he will keep women in their
right place in his life—as trifles.”
Gram laughed: “How old is your friend Heggen? I hope for the man’s own
sake that he will change his opinion some day about the most conclusive
influence in life.”
“I don’t,” said Jenny vehemently, “but I hope I, too, shall learn some
day to put this nonsense about love in its right place.”
“My dear Jenny, you speak as if—as if you had no sense, I was going to
say, but I know you have,” said Gram, with a melancholy smile. “Shall I
tell you something of what I know about love, little one? If I did not
believe in it, I should not have the least particle of faith in men—or in
myself. Do you believe that it is only women who think life meaningless,
and find their hearts empty and frozen if they have nothing but their
work to love or to depend upon? Do you believe there is a single soul
living who has not moments of doubt in himself? You must have somebody in
whose keeping you can give the best in you—your love and your trust.
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