Adultery -- Fiction; Artists -- Fiction; Illegitimate children -- Fiction; Painters -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
But there was something else—Jenny felt it distinctly—that Cesca did not
tell her, and she knew she could not be to Cesca now what she had been
in the old days. She had no longer the tranquil heart and open mind,
ready to receive the sorrows of others and able to give comfort; and it
hurt her to feel that she could no longer help.
* * * * *
Cesca had gone to Moss one day to do some shopping. Jenny preferred to
stay at home, and was spending the day in the garden reading, so as
not to think. Then, when she found that she could not pay attention to
her book, she started knitting, but soon lost count of her stitches,
pulled them out, and went on again, trying to be more attentive. Cesca
did not come back to dinner as she had promised, and Jenny dined alone,
killing the afternoon by smoking cigarettes which she did not enjoy, and
knitting, though her work constantly dropped on to her lap.
At last, about ten o’clock Cesca came driving up the avenue; Jenny had
gone to meet her, and the moment she sat down beside her in the cart she
saw that something had happened, but neither of them said a word.
Later, when Francesca had had something to eat and they were having a cup
of tea, she said quietly without looking at Jenny:
“Can you guess whom I met in town today?”
“No.”
“Hans Hermann. He is on a visit at the island and living with a rich
woman who seems to have taken him up.”
“Is his wife with him?” asked Jenny.
“No; they are divorced. I saw in the papers that they had lost their
little boy in the spring. I am sorry for her”—and Cesca began to talk of
other things.
* * * * *
When Jenny was in bed Cesca came quietly into her room, sitting down at
the foot end of the bed and pulling her nightdress well over her feet.
She sat with her arms folded round her knees, her little dark head making
a black shadow on the curtain.
“Jenny, I am going home tomorrow. I will send a wire to Lennart early in
the morning and leave in the afternoon. You must stay here as long as you
like, and don’t think me very inconsiderate, but I dare not stay. I must
go at once.” She was breathing heavily. “I cannot understand it, Jenny. I
have seen him. He kissed me, and I did not strike him. I listened to all
he had to say, and I did not strike him in the face as I ought to have
done. I don’t care for him—I know that now—and yet he has power over me.
I am afraid. I dare not stay, because I don’t know what he might make
me do. When I think of him now I hate him, but when he speaks to me I
seem to get petrified; and I could not believe that anybody could be so
cynical, so brutal, so shameless.
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