Adultery -- Fiction; Artists -- Fiction; Illegitimate children -- Fiction; Painters -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
“Don’t think I would reproach you if there had been another—a young
man—your equal; I could understand that easier.”
“You don’t seem able to realize—I don’t think there need be another.”
“Perhaps not. It seemed to me more likely, and, remembering what you
wrote about Heggen being at Tegneby and going to Berlin....”
Jenny blushed deeply:
“How can you think that I would have—yesterday?”
Gert was silent. Then he said wearily:
“I cannot quite make you out.”
She was suddenly seized by a wish to hurt him.
“In a way it would not be wrong to say that there was another—a third
person.”
He looked at her searchingly, then clutched her arm all of a sudden:
“Jenny—good God!—what do you mean?”
But she regretted her words already, and said hurriedly:
“Yes, my work—my art.”
* * * * *
Gert Gram had risen to his knees before her:
“Jenny—is there anything—particular—tell me the truth—don’t lie to me—is
there anything the matter with you?”
She tried for a second to look him straight in the eyes, then bent her
head. Gert Gram fell forward with his face in her lap.
“O God!—O God!...”
“Gert, dear, compose yourself. You irritated me with your talk about
another. I ought not to have told you. I did not mean to let you know
until afterwards.”
“I would never have forgiven you for not telling me,” said Gram. “You
must have known this some time. Do you know how...?”
“Three months,” she answered shortly.
“Jenny”—he seized her hands in awe—“you cannot break with me now—not in
this way. We cannot part now.”
“Oh yes.” She stroked his face caressingly. “If this had not happened
I daresay we could still have been together some time, but now I must
arrange my life accordingly, and make the best of it.”
He was silent a moment.
“Listen to me, little one. You know I was divorced last month. In two
years’ time I shall be free, and then I will come to you to give you—and
it—my name. I ask nothing from you, you understand—nothing—but I claim
the right to give you the redress I owe you. God knows I shall suffer
because it cannot be done before. Nothing else will I claim; you shall
not be tied in the least to me—an old man.”
“Gert, I am glad that you are separated from her, but I will tell you
once and for all that I am not going to marry you when I cannot be your
wife in truth. It is not because of the difference in age. If I did not
feel that I have never wholly been yours, as I should have been, I would
stay with you—your wife as long as you were young, your friend when old
age came—even your nurse—willingly and happily. But I know I cannot be
what a wife ought to be, and I cannot promise a thing I could not keep
just because of what other people might say—church or civil contract, it
makes no difference.”
“It is madness, Jenny, to talk like that.”
“You cannot make me change on that point,” she replied quietly.
“What are you going to do, child? I cannot let you go now. What will
happen to you?—you _must_ let me help you.”
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