When Eloise spoke in the ravine of talking with her grandfather, it was
because for a few days she had been trying to make up her mind to an
interview with him. A fortnight ago she would have felt this to be
impossible; but subtle changes had been going on in herself, and, she
thought, in him. If her mother would undertake the interview now and
take that stand with Mr. Evringham which Eloise felt that self-respect
demanded, the girl would gladly escape it; but there was no prospect
of such a thing. Mrs. Evringham was only too glad to benefit by her
father-in-law's modified mood, to glide along the surface of things
and wait--Eloise knew it, knew it every day, in moments when her cheeks
flushed hot--for Dr. Ballard to throw the handkerchief.
The girl wished to talk with Mr. Evringham without her mother's
knowledge, and the prospect was a dreaded ordeal. She felt that they had
won his contempt, and she feared the loss of her own self-control when
she should come to touch upon the sore spots.
“What would you do, Jewel,” she asked the next morning, after they had
read the lesson; “what would you do if you were afraid of somebody?”
“I wouldn't be,” returned the child quickly.
“Well, I am. Now what am I going to do about it?”
Anna Belle, who always gave unwinking attention to the lesson, was in
Jewel's lap, and the child twisted out the in-turning morocco foot as
she spoke.
“Why, I'd know that one thought of God couldn't be afraid of another,”
she replied in the conclusive tone to which Eloise could never grow
accustomed.
“Oh, Jewel, child,” the girl said impatiently, “we'd be sorry to think
most of the people we know are thoughts of God.”
“That's because you get the error man mixed up with the real one. Mother
explains that to me when we ride in cable cars and places where we see
error people with sorry faces. There's a real man, a real thought of
God, behind every one of them; and when you remember to think right
about people every minute, you are doing them good. Did you say you're
afraid of somebody?”
“Yes, and that somebody is a man whom I must talk to.”
“Then begin right away to know every minute that the real man isn't
anybody to be afraid of, for God made him, and God has only loving
thoughts; and of course you must be loving all the time. It'll be just
as _easy_ by the time you come to it, cousin Eloise!”
The girl often asked herself in these days why she should begin to
feel unreasonably hopeful and lighter hearted. Her mother no longer
complained of her moods. Mrs. Evringham laid the becoming change in her
daughter's expression to the girl's happiness in discovering that she
did reciprocate Dr. Ballard's evident sentiments.
“Eloise is so high minded,” thought the mother complacently. “She
would never be satisfied to marry for convenience, like so many;” and
considering herself passingly astute, she let well enough alone, ceased
to bring the physician's name into every conversation, and bided her
time.
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