Conduct of life -- Fiction; Fantasy fiction; Parables
And there the lesser jewel lay, just as she had brought it, and the
decision was once more that this was rubbish also.
Then she turned to him, and cried bitterly:
“You gave me the seeds—what is wrong with them? I cannot alter them from
what they are.”
“Perhaps it would be best if now you left the garden,” he answered
slowly, “seeing it is so profitless.”
But she looked at him with straining eyes, and answered:
“I can’t. It’s the work I have been put to do, and I must finish it. I
told the frog I thought my heart was in that first hard mound, and I
believe it is. But there’s something else beside my heart, and that’s
there too, and I’ll never be free till it is free. And what can I do? I
am mad. I see things beautiful that others only stare at, and then pass
by with scarcely one comment. And the old cruel voice keeps crying, ‘Go
on! go on!’ and whither can I go? The path is all so black that, forward
or backward, I am lost whichever way I turn.”
Then because he did not answer, she said at last:
“Send it, the first I brought to you, that brilliant moonstone, to some
other place. The man who called it rubbish can’t have any eyes.”
“Just as you like,” he answered.
Then she went away.
In the plantation there had set so hard a frost that everything was
white and stiff and ice-bound. There lay the half-chipped mound
containing the other jewel scarce yet visible. But Rosalie had no heart
to touch it, even had the frost allowed her.
And no result came from sending the moonstone to another place. One
general and unanimous opinion: it had no value—that was all. And still
for months the blighting frost lay dead on everything.
In vain, with burning fever under the outward chill that froze her too,
did Rosalie take the fork and try with what little strength was in her
arms to break the iron earth. Nothing moved. It only made her recognise
the more the great impossibility, the strength of life imprisoned by the
frozen hands of death.
At last (for now the gate within the edge was never fast) she went again
to the Governor.
“What am I to do?” she asked. “I can’t get on with anything, nor move
either way. I’ve prayed to God a thousand times to give me peace or
break the ice, or let me get the price of freedom from that jewel which
I brought to you, and nothing ever answers, except in contradiction. I
prayed one night the thaw might come—a hundred times and more I prayed
it. In the morning a double frost had settled, petrifying hard as iron.
Another night I prayed for peace and rest. I could not stand so terrible
a strain. I never dreamt as that night. Ten times I dozed and woke
again, covered with sweat, all shivering in the cold, to think myself
alive within a coffin, buried within the ground. And most incessantly
that other prayer to reap the price of freedom with the stone, and as
you know, it lies here in your keeping—a useless thing, and judged
devoid of worth.”
“You say your heart is in the stone,” he answered.
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