Jimmy being a mere creature of impulse, and in a desperate hurry always
to do whatever his mind happened to light upon--until something else
attracted his attention--began setting about the great and celebrated
business without delay. He bought books--a few at a time, and quite
unsuited to his purpose--and fell asleep over them with great regularity
in the room upstairs for a week or two. They taught him
something--stirred that brain that had not been stirred by anything
beyond figures for a long time; made him think for himself. For, save
that grounding in elementary things given by the Rev. Temple Purdue, and
a deeper grounding in classical matters the importance of which he had
not grasped, Jimmy was profoundly ignorant. For the first time he began
to remember something of the romantic side of life, as told him years
before by Old Paul; for the first time began to apply that
half-forgotten knowledge to his own purposes. Two years from the time
Jimmy had landed in London, when he was coming near to his twentieth
year, he began sheepishly and with a locked door to write. By that time
the books covered two long shelves, and were in every state of binding
imaginable, and in every condition of repair.
Is it necessary to state that he began with verse? Finding most
unaccountably a line singing in his head for the greater part of one
day, he went home, and set that line down at the top of a fair sheet of
paper, and added another; afterwards erasing the second as being
unworthy of the first. Stumblingly, he went at the thing again; felt
that the first line was not after all what it might be, and, moreover,
that it was difficult to fit with a rhyme; therefore he began again.
Poor Jimmy! His beginnings were about all there were of him for a time;
and he spoilt much paper. But by that time the subtle craze of it had
eaten into his very life, and the warehouse was a mere necessary thing
by which he must live, but which did not really concern him in the
least. After a time the verses failed to concern him also; he determined
to return to them at a later period--much as Mr. Thomas Hardy had done,
after making himself famous in another direction; also there was Mr.
George Meredith to be thought of, and remembered with satisfaction. In
other words, Jimmy tackled prose--as being easier.
The writing seemed at first the smallest part of it all; it was the
sending of the stuff about. Bulky packages came back to the
boarding-house, with the names of various papers and magazines stamped
aggressively on the covers; and, of course, created comment. Jimmy bore
it with a burning face, and tried to call to mind other persecutions
endured by the elect of the earth under similar conditions; the stories
of sons who had been thrashed by commonplace fathers upon showing marked
literary, artistic, or musical ability afforded him keen satisfaction.
Obviously he was on the right road, although no thrashings in the actual
sense were his.
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