East Anglia (England) -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
“I wonder what is the matter with me?” she said to herself.
“I feel as though my veins were on fire. I suppose that these scenes have
upset me; or perhaps that tea was too strong. Well, I must go and look after
Captain Graves. Aunt won’t be back till twelve o’clock or so, and
it’s my last night, so I had better make the most of it. I dare say that
they will turn me out of the house to-morrow.” And, with a bitter little
laugh, she took up the candle preparatory to going to Henry’s room.
Near the door Joan paused, and, whether by chance or by design, turned to look
at herself in an oak-framed mirror that hung upon the wall, whither doubtless
it had been brought from some old house in the neighbourhood, for it was costly
and massive in make. Her first glance was cursory, then she held up the candle
and began to examine herself more attentively, since, perhaps for the first
time in her life, her appearance fascinated her, and she became fully aware of
her own loveliness. Indeed, in that moment she was lovely as lovely as we may
imagine the ancient Helen to have been, or any of those women who have set the
world aflame. Her brown eyes were filled with a strange light beneath their
curving lashes and the clear-cut heavy lids; her sweet mouth drooped a little,
like that of a sleeping child, showing the ivory of her teeth between the
parted lips; her cheeks glowed like the bloom on a peach; and above, the masses
of her gold-brown hair shone faintly in the candlelight. Perhaps it was that
the grey dress set it off more perfectly than usual at least it seemed to Joan,
considering herself critically, that her form was worthy of the face above it;
and, in truth, it would have been hard to find a woman cast in a more perfect
mould. Tall, and somewhat slender for her height, her every movement was full
of grace, and revealed some delicacy of limb or neck or carriage.
Seeing herself thus, a new light broke upon Joan’s mind, and she
understood how it came about that Samuel Rock worshipped her so madly. Well, if
mere beauty could move one man thus, why should not beauty and tenderness and
love—ah! love that could not be measured—suffice to move another?
She smiled at the thought—a slow, sweet smile; and with the smile a sense
of her own power entered into her, a power that she had never learned until
this moment.
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