East Anglia (England) -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
“You can guess the rest. To put myself out of temptation, and to save the
man I loved from being disgraced and contaminated by me, I married the man I
hated—a man so base that, even when I had told him all, and bargained
that I should live apart from him for many months, he was yet content to take
me. I did more than this even: I wrote in such a fashion to Sir Henry as I knew
must shock and revolt him; and then I married, leaving him to believe that I
had thrown him over because the husband whom I had chosen was richer than
himself. Perhaps you cannot guess why I should thus have dishonoured both of
us, and subjected myself to the horrible shame of making myself vile in Sir
Henry’s eyes. This was the reason: had I not done so, had he once
suspected the true motives of my sacrifice, the plot would have failed. I
should have sold myself for nothing, for then he would never have married Emma
Levinger. And now, that my cup may be full, my child is dead, and to-morrow I
must give myself over to my husband according to the terms of my bond. This,
sir, is the fruit of all your falsehoods; and I say, Ask God to forgive you,
but not the poor girl—your own daughter—whom you have robbed of
honour and happiness, and handed over to misery and shame.”
Thus Joan spoke to him, in a quiet, an almost mechanical voice indeed, but
standing on her feet above the dying man, and with eyes and gestures that
betrayed her absorbing indignation. When she had finished, her father, who was
crouched in the chair before her, let fall his hands, wherewith he had hidden
his face, and she saw that he was gasping for breath and that his lips were
blue.
“‘The way of transgressors is hard,’ as we both have
learned,” he muttered, with a deathly smile, “and I deserve it all.
I am sorry for you, Joan, but I cannot help you. If it consoles you, you may
remember that, whereas your sorrows and shame are but temporal, mine, as I fear
will be eternal. And now, since you refuse to forgive me, farewell; for I can
talk no more, and must make ready, as best I can, to take my evil doings hence
before another, and, I trust, a more merciful Judge.”
Joan turned to leave the room, but ere she reached the door the rage died out
of her heart and pity entered it.
“I forgive you, father,” she said, “for it is Heaven’s
will that these things should have happened, and by my own sin I have brought
the worst of them upon me. I forgive you, as I hope to be forgiven. But oh! I
pray that my time here may be short.”
“God bless you for those words, Joan!” he murmured.
Then she was gone.
CHAPTER XXXVIII.
A GHOST OF THE PAST.
Lady Graves sat at breakfast in the dining-room at Rosham, where she had
arrived from London on the previous evening, to welcome home her son and her
daughter-in-law. Just as she was rising from the table the butler brought her a
telegram.
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