At once the fat boy whom she detested crossed the indefinite line
dividing the scene from "off-stage," and leering insolently, spoke the
opening line of the play. Seething with indignation, the girl looked up
and in cutting accents shot her reply at him. She was pleased to
surprise a look of dumb amazement in his eyes. At all events, she had
succeeded in letting _him_ know just how she felt toward him! And this
success inspired her to further efforts. She rattled through the
remainder of the scene with the manner of a youthful termagant.
When she had finished, Wilbrow said nothing beyond: "Again, please."
The demand served only to deepen her resentment, and the second
repetition differed not materially from the first.
Ceasing to speak, she flounced away, but Wilbrow's voice brought her
back.
"Very good, Miss Thursday," he said mildly--"very good indeed. But
why--in the name of Mike!--if you _could_ do it--why wouldn't you until
now?"
"Because," Joan stammered--"because--!"
But she didn't dare say what she wished to, and checked her tongue in a
fit of sulks more eloquent than any words she could have found.
Wilbrow waited an instant, then laughed quite cheerfully.
"The usual reason, eh? I might have guessed you had a sure-'nough one
concealed about you.... That's all for today. Tomorrow morning at nine."
Privately pondering this experience, Joan surprised its secret, and
drew from it a conclusion that was to have an important influence upon
her professional future: in order to act convincingly, she must herself
feel the emotions accredited to her part. As applied to her individual
temperament, at that stage of its development, this rule had all the
inflexibility of an axiom. Others might--as others do--act in obedience
to the admonitions of their intelligence: Joan could at that stage act
only according to the promptings of her emotional self.
So she encouraged herself to hate Wilbrow with all her heart, to despise
him without ceasing night or day; no charitable thought of the manager
was suffered to gain access to her humour at any hour. And so admirably
did she succeed in impregnating her mind with virulent dislike of the
man, that she afforded him no end of amusement. She made a point of
coming to the rehearsals early enough to infuriate herself with
contemplation of him in the flesh; and of walking up and down, before
and between her scenes, thinking evil of him. The twinkle with which his
eyes followed her, in place of their erstwhile calm indifference or
resignation, worked only to intensify her rancour. Curiously enough, a
clear comprehension of the illogical absurdity of it all made her temper
even more bitter.
One day just before the final rehearsals, Wilbrow, meeting her at the
stage-door, planted his slender body squarely in her way.
"Good morning!" he said cheerfully, with a semi-malicious smile. "My
congratulations, Miss Thursday! You're doing nobly."
"Thanks," Joan said curtly, pausing perforce.
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