It was decided to leave New York by a Sunday train which would put them
down in Springfield in the middle of the afternoon, enabling the company
to find suitable lodgings before meeting to run through their lines in
the evening. They would have an opportunity for a sketchy, scrambly
rehearsal on the stage Monday morning, but dared not depend on that; for
the greater part of their allotted period would necessarily be consumed
in the selection of a practicable "set" from the stock of the theatre,
in making arrangements for suitable furniture properties, and in
drilling the house electrician in the uncommonly heavy schedule of light
cues--any one of which, if bungled, was calculated seriously to impair
the illusion of the sketch.
Joan thoughtfully stipulated for twenty-five dollars advance, against
expenses. Quard protested, alleging financial straits due to his already
heavy outlay, but the girl was firm. True, she still had (unknown to
him) one hundred and twenty-five dollars; but not until near the end of
their week at Springfield would they know whether or not they were to
get further booking.
In the end the actor ungraciously surrendered.
She made her preparations for leaving her hall-bedroom with a craft and
stealth worthy of a burglar preparing to break prison.
If her break with Matthias was to become absolute, she was determined
not to leave any clue whereby she might be traced.
An enquiry as to the best place to take a dress to be dry-cleaned
furnished sufficient excuse for lugging away one well-filled suit-case,
which Joan left at a cheap theatrical hotel a few blocks farther uptown
and east of Broadway, where she simultaneously engaged a room for
Saturday night. And on Saturday afternoon she carried away a second
suit-case containing the remainder of her wardrobe, informing Madame
Duprat that she was going to visit her folks for a day or two.
But first she had to undergo a bad quarter-hour in the back-parlour.
The sense of her treachery would not lift from her mood. Perhaps she
felt its oppression the more heavily because of her uncertainty: she
couldn't yet be sure she wasn't committing herself to a step of
irrevocable error; she was only sure that she was doing what she wanted
to do with all her heart, whatever evil might come of it. And there
would be more ease in companionship with Quard; with him she could have
her own way in everything, could always be her natural self and still
retain his respect--and her own. On the other hand, she could not look
up to him, and was by no means as fond of him as of Matthias. Her
fiancée was without reproach: he loved her; but his respect she could
never own. Dimly she recognized this fact; though he thought he
respected her, and did truly honour her as his promised wife, he was his
own dupe, passion-blinded. Actually, they were people of different
races, their emotional natures differently organized, their mental
processes working from widely divergent views of life.
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