And Quard? Joan curled a lip: _he_ wouldn't pine away for her. She had
come to know too well his shallow bag of tricks; and life to him was not
life if he lacked one before whose dazzled vision he could air his
graces and accomplishments--strut and crow and trail a handsome wing in
the dust. Looking back she could see very clearly, now, how love had
waned as soon as lust was sated in the man. That night in Cincinnati had
been the turning point: he had refrained from drink only as long as his
wife continued to intoxicate his senses.
And Joan?... In the stifling gloom of her curtained section the girl
stretched luxuriously, breathed deep, and smiled a secret, enigmatic
smile. No more than he, would she waste herself away with grief and
longing. She was no longer another's but now her own mistress: a free
adventurer, by the gold band upon her finger licensed to cruise with
letters of marque.
Shortly before sunrise she fell asleep, still smiling, and slept on
sweetly well into mid-morning. Then, rising, she refreshed herself in
the wash-room, and went to a late breakfast with countenance as clear
and firm and bright as if she had never known a wakeful hour.
The eyes of men followed her wherever she moved, and when she was seated
alone in her section, dreaming over a magazine or gazing pensively out
of the window, men discovered errands that took them to and fro in her
vicinity more often than was warranted by any encouragement she gave
them. For she gave them none, she ignored them every one. She was
through with Man for good and all!
It was a brand new rôle, and to play it diverted her immensely for the
time being....
She spent the greater part of her waking hours, during the next few
days, planning what she would do with all that money. Clothes, of
course, figured ever first in these projections, and then a suite of
rooms at some ostentatious hotel, and taxicabs when she went out to call
on managers. How many times hadn't she heard Maizie Dean solemnly affirm
that "a swell front does more to put you in _right_ than anything else,
with them lowlifers"?
And again she was pleasurably diverted by a vision of herself,
extravagantly gowned, returning to recount her Odyssey to an admiring
audience composed of Ma, Edna, and, perhaps, Butch; at the close of
which she would distribute largesse, not forgetting to return Butch's
loan with open-handed interest, and go on her way rejoicing, pursued by
envious benedictions....
New York received her like a bridegroom, clothed in April sunshine as in
a suit of golden mail, amazingly splendid and joyous. After that weary
grind of inland towns and cities, differing one from another only in
degrees of griminess, greyness, and dullness, New York seemed Paradise
Regained to Joan. She had not believed it could seem so beautiful, so
magnificent, so sensuously seductive.
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