In the simplicity of his heart, he saw nothing outrageous in her
demands. She was troubled and anxious about Ellen, and had a right to
expect him to help her solve this problem in the best way that had
occurred to her. As for Ellen herself, now his attention had been called
to the matter, he could see that she admired him and sought him out. Why
she should do so was as much a mystery as ever--he could not think why
so soft and dainty and beautiful a creature should want to marry a
homely chap like himself. But he did not doubt the facts, and when, at
the beginning of the second week, he proposed to her, he was much less
surprised at her acceptance than she was herself.
Ellen had never meant to accept him--all she had wanted had been the
mere proclaimable fact of his surrender; but during the last weeks the
focus of her plans had shifted--they had come to mean more than the
gratification of her vanity. The denial of what she sought, the dragging
of her schemes, the growing sense of hopelessness, had made her see just
exactly how much she wanted. She would really like to marry Alce--the
slight physical antipathy with which she had started had now
disappeared, and she felt that she would not object to him as a lover.
He was, moreover, an excellent match--better than any young Vines or
Southlands or Furneses; as his wife she would be important and
well-to-do, her triumph would be sealed, open and celebrated.... She
would moreover be free. That was the strong hidden growth that had
heaved up her flat little plans of a mere victory in tattle--if she
married she would be her own mistress, free for ever of Joanna's
tyranny. She could do what she liked with Alce--she would be able to go
where she liked, know whom she liked, wear what she liked; whereas with
Joanna all these things were ruthlessly decreed. Of course she was fond
of Jo, but she was tired of living with her--you couldn't call your soul
your own--she would never be happy till she had made herself independent
of Jo, and only marriage would do that. She was tired of sulking and
submitting--she could make a better life for herself over at Donkey
Street than she could at Ansdore. Of course if she waited she might get
somebody better, but she might have to wait a long time, and she did not
care for waiting. She was not old or patient or calculating enough to be
a really successful schemer; her plans carried her this time only as far
as a triumph over Joanna and an escape from Ansdore.
Sec.15
Certainly her triumph was a great one. Brodnyx and Pedlinge had never
expected such a thing. Their attitude had hitherto been that of the man
at the fair, who would rather distrust appearances than believe Arthur
Alce could change from Joanna Godden to her sister Ellen. It would have
been as easy to think of the sunset changing from Rye to
Court-at-Street.
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