Alone, Rawn seated himself in the Elizabethan armchair devised by his
most favored decorator as fitting for this Elizabethan room. A vast
oak bed, heavily carved, with deep and heavy curtains, represented the
decorator's idea of what the Virgin Queen preferred. The walls were
deeply carved in wainscot and cornice. A rude attempt was made at
strength and simplicity in this, the sanctum of the master of Graystone
Hall. Granted the aid of a lively imagination, this might have been
the apartment of some feudal lord of another day; as the designer and
architect had not failed delicately to suggest to Mr. Rawn.
It is possible that in the time of Elizabeth pier glasses with heavily
carved frames were not common in the size affected by Mr. Rawn in his
private apartment. He stood before the great glass now and gazed at
what he saw; a face haggard and lined, shoulders stooping a little
forward, body a little stooped, a little heavy, a little soft; the
watch charm hanging in free air--the figure of a man no longer
athletic, if ever so.
Rawn stood engaged in his regular nightly devotions--he made no prayers
of eventide beyond that to his mirror. But now something he saw caused
him to fling himself into a seat at a smaller glass, where the light
was better. He gazed into this also, intently. Something seemed
strange about his eyes, about his mouth. He turned his face slightly
sidewise and studied the deep triangular lines at the corner of the
chin. He saw a roll of fat at the back of his neck, and observed a
certain throatiness, a voluminousness of flesh below the chin. The
latter stood out distinct, pushing forward;--the rich man's chin, the
old man's chin. He lifted a finger and touched the arteries on his
temples. They were firmer to the touch than once they had been. He
looked at the veins on his hands, and realized that they stood fuller
than was once the case. His nose, large, just a trifle bulbous, seemed
to him to have gained somewhat in color in late years. He looked at
his eyes in eager questioning. Yes, they belonged to him! But for
some reason they lacked brilliance and fire. They were colder, less
impressive, less responsive;--the rich man's eyes, the old man's eyes.
He looked at his hair, now almost white at the temples. He hesitated
for a moment, then picked up a hand glass and deliberately turned his
back to the mirror. Yes, it was there, a shiny spot of naked
epidermis. He knew that, but always he shunned the knowledge and the
proof. For many years his thick mane of wiry hair had been his pride.
John Rawn turned and put the hand mirror on the dresser top again. He
looked full into the glass at his image once more. His pendulous lower
lip drooped, tremulously. He saw his eyes winking. He saw something
else. Yes, to his wonder, to his gasping horror, he saw something
strange and revolutionary! A tear was standing in the corner of his
eye! It dropped, it trickled down his cheek.
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