These outings, indeed, had nearly fallen through, when Jonah, fumbling
for words and afraid to say what was on his mind, had touched on a
detail of his business. To his surprise Clara caught fire like straw,
fascinated at being shown the inner workings of the "Silver Shoe". And
from that time a curious attitude had grown between them. Jonah talked
of his business, and stared at Clara as she listened, forgetful of him,
her mind absorbed in details of profit and loss. She found the
position easy to maintain, for Jonah, catching at straws, demanded no
positive encouragement. A chance word or look from her was rich matter
for a week's thought, twisted and turned in his mind till it meant all
he desired.
She saw clearly and coldly that Jonah had placed her on a pedestal, and
she determined never to step down of her own accord, recognizing with
the instinct for business that had surprised Jonah that she would lose
more than she would gain. And yet the sudden glimpse of passion in
Jonah had whetted her appetite for more. It had recalled the days of
her engagement with a singular bitterness and pleasure. She thought
with a hateful persistence of her first love, the man who had
accustomed her to admiration and then shuffled out of the engagement,
forced by the attitude of his relatives to her father. But for weeks
after the scene at Cremorne Jonah had retired within himself terrified
lest he should alarm her and put an end to their outings. So far she
had timed their meetings for the daylight out of prudence, but, pricked
on by curiosity, she had begun to dally on the return journey, desiring
and fearing some token of his adoration.
Meanwhile Jonah swung like a pendulum between hope and despair. He
dimly suspected that a bolder man would have had his declaration out
and done with long ago, and he waited for a favourable opportunity; but
it came and went, and left him speechless. He had accepted Ada as the
typical woman, and now found himself as much at sea as if he had
discovered a new species, for he never suspected that any other woman
had it in her power, given a favourable opportunity, to lead him to
this new world of sensation. Women had always been shy of him, and
with his abnormal shape and his absorption in business it had been easy
for him to miss what lay beneath the surface. But for the accident of
his meeting with Clara, his temperament would have carried him through
life, unconscious of love from his own experience and regarding it as a
fable of women and poets.
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