Joseph and His Friend: A Story of PennsylvaniaTaylor, Bayard
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Joseph and His Friend: A Story of Pennsylvania
Taylor, Bayard
Pennsylvania -- Fiction
"Then you must try to win the help of a higher will; our souls always
win something of that which they wrestle and struggle to reach. Dear
Mrs. Hopeton, have you never thought that we are still as children who
cannot have all they cry for? Now that you know what you fear, do not
dread to hold it before your mind and examine what it is: at least, I
think that would be my instinct,—to face a danger at once when I found I
could not escape it."
"I have no doubt you are right, Lucy," said Mrs. Hopeton; but her tone
was sad, as if she acquiesced without clearly believing.
"It seems very hard," Lucy continued, "when we cannot have the one love
of all others that we need, harder still when we must put it forcibly
from our hearts. But I have always felt that, when we can bring
ourselves to renounce cheerfully, a blessing will follow. I do not know
how, but I must believe it. Might it not come at last through the love
that we have, though it now seems imperfect?"
Mrs. Hopeton lifted her head from her knees, and sat erect. "Lucy," she
said, "I do not believe you are a woman who would ask another to bear
what is beyond your own strength. Shall I put you to the test?"
Lucy, though her face became visibly paler, replied: "I did not mean to
compare my burden with yours; but weigh me, if you wish. If I am found
wanting, you will show me wherein."
"Your one love above all others is lost to you. Have you conquered the
desire for it?"
"I think I have. If some soreness remains, I try to believe that it is
the want of the love which I know to be possible, not that of the—the
person."
"Then could you be happy with what you call an imperfect love?"
Lucy blushed a little, in spite of herself. "I am still free," she
answered, "and not obliged to accept it. If I were bound, I hope I
should not neglect my duty."
"What if another's happiness depended on your accepting it? Lucy, my
eyes have been made keen by what I have felt. I saw to-day that a man's
heart follows you, and I guess that you know it. Here is no imperfect
love on his part: were you his wife, could you learn to give him so much
that your life might become peaceful and satisfied?"
"You do, indeed, test me!" Lucy murmured. "How can I know? What answer
can I make? I have shrunk from thinking of that, and I cannot feel that
my duty lies there. Yet, if it were so, if I were already bound,
irrevocably, surely all my present faith must be false if happiness in
some form did not come at last!"
"I believe it would, to you!" cried Mrs. Hopeton. "Why not to me? Do you
think I have ever looked for _love_ in my husband? It seems, now, that I
have been content to know that he was proud of me. If I seek, perhaps I
may find more than I have dreamed of; and if I find,—if indeed and truly
I find,—I shall never more lack self-possession and will!"
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