Ali, how happy we were, and how our lives seemed spread before us like
a bright holiday, which was to be spent in a land where the air was
always sweet--where the flowers were always blooming! No thought of
winter; but it came, with its frost and snow, and racked me with a
renewal of the old pains. I could have borne them cheerfully, if they
had not sometimes prevented me from working. We fell into poverty; and
through all its bitterness she never complained, and never gave me one
word of reproach. Nay, often and often, when she saw that my
sufferings were increased by the thought that I had asked her to share
my poor life, she comforted me and cheered me with tender speech, that
fell like balm upon my soul. I struggled on in my profession, gaining
applause always, but never seeming to mount a step nearer to the goal
where fame and fortune stood beckoning me. My wife had written to her
family without my knowledge; but not one of them replied except her
good aunt, who sent her a small sum of money. When Minnie was born she
wrote again, but the old lady was dead. Still, somehow we managed: our
wants were small, and our happiness was perfect. We had to travel
about a great deal; and when we had not sufficient money to pay our
coach-fares, we walked, and made the way light for each other by
cheering words. Many scores of miles have I--the great tragedian, as
they called me in the bills--carried our little Minnie in my arms,
lulling her to sleep, or pointing out to her the beauties of nature,
as they peeped at us out of hedgerows, or as they sprang up in the
gardens of great mansions, where they were not hidden by grim walls,
as if their owners were jealous lest the poor toilers on the road
should enjoy their lovely forms and colors. Now and then we got a lift
on a wagon, and the music of the bells on the horses' necks often
lulled Minnie to sleep. We seldom staid in one place longer than a
fortnight; but once we stopped in a town for nearly four months,
playing three nights a week. That was a happy time. I used to come
home from the theatre when my work was done, and Alice and I would sit
in our humble lodgings until late in the night, talking of such
matters as were nearest to our hearts; painting the future in bright
colors, and weaving fancies about our Minnie, who would sometimes be
lying awake on her mother's lap, and whose little fingers would clasp
one of mine as the ivy clasps the oak. We made many friends--false
friends most of them, attracted by my wife's beauty--friends whose
speech was fair, but whose thoughts were treacherous. But rocks on
which many a woman's good name and happiness have been wrecked melted
like snow before my wife's purity. And still we struggled on, hoping
against hope, until there came a time which cast a shadow on me never
to be removed except by death. It was in the autumn of the year. My
wife had been ill, and I had to nurse her and carry her about, and
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