Yet, the plausibility of his audacious theories would sometimes return
questioningly upon me. Man was an integral part of Nature, not alien to
it. What was there, after all, so impossible in what he claimed? And
what amongst it might not the science of to-morrow, with its X rays, N
rays, its wireless messages, its radium, its inter-molecular energy,
and its slowly-formulating laws of telepathy and the dynamic character
of Thought, not come eventually to confirm under new-fangled names?
So far as I reflected concerning these things at all, I kept an open
mind; my point was simply that I preferred the ordinary pursuits of
ordinary men. He was evidently aware of the change in me, while yet he
made no effort to prevent my going. Nor did he make, so far as I can
recall, any direct reference to the matter. Once only, in a lecture
room, with a hand upon my shoulder while we jostled out together in the
stream of other students, he bent his face towards me and said with the
tender, comprehending smile that never failed to touch me deeply: “Our
lives are far too deeply knit for any final separation. Out of the Past
we come, and that Past is not exhausted yet.” The crowd had carried us
apart before I could reply, but through me like a flash of lightning
rose the certainty that this was literally true, and that while my
upper, modern Self went off, my older, hidden Self was with him to the
end. We merely took two curves that presently must join again.
But, though we saw little of one another all these weeks, I can never
forget the scene of our actual leave-taking, nor the extraordinary
incidents that led up to it. Now that I set it down on paper such
phrases as “imaginative glamour” and the like may tempt me, but at the
time it was as real and actual as the weekly battles with my landlady,
or the sheaves of laborious notes I made at lecture-time. In some
region of my consciousness, abnormal or otherwise, this scene most
certainly took place.
It was one late evening towards the close of the session--March or
April, therefore--that I had occasion to visit LeVallon’s house for
some reason in itself of no importance; one of those keen and blustery
nights that turn Edinburgh into a scene of unspeakable desolation,
Princes Street, a vista of sheeted rain where shop-windows glistened
upon black pavements; the Castle smothered in mist; Scott’s Monument
semi-invisible with a monstrous air about it in the gloom; and the
entire deserted town swept by a wind that howled across the Forth with
gusts of quite thunderous energy. Even the cable-cars blundered along
like weary creatures blindly seeking shelter.
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