He came over and sat closer to me. The web of his language folded
closer too. The momentum of his sincerity threw itself against all my
prejudices, so that I, too, saw the serpentine vista of these previous
lives stretching like a river across the ages. To this day I see his
tall, slim figure, his face with the clear pale skin, the burning eyes;
now he leaned across the table, now stood up to emphasise some phrase,
now paced the floor of that lamp-lit students’ lodging-house, while he
spoke of the long battling of our souls together, sowing thoughts and
actions whose consequences must one day be reaped without evasion. The
scale of his Dream was vast indeed, its prospect austere and merciless,
yet the fundamental idea of justice made it beautiful, as its inclusion
of all Nature made it grand.
To Julius LeVallon the soul was indeed unconquerable, and man master
of his fate. Death lost its ugliness and terror; the sense of broken,
separated life was replaced by the security of a continuous existence,
whole, unhurried, eternal, affording ample time for all development,
accepting joy and suffering as the justice of results, but never as of
reward or punishment. There was no caprice; there was no such thing as
chance.
Then, as the night wore slowly on, and the wind died down, and the
wonderful old town lay sleeping peacefully, we talked at last of that
one thing towards which all our conversation tended subconsciously: our
future together and the experiment that it held in store for us--with
her.
I cannot hope to set down here the words by which this singular
being led me, half accepting, to the edge of understanding that his
conception might be right. To that edge, however, I somehow felt my
mind was coaxed. I looked over that edge. I saw for a moment something
of his magnificent panorama. I realised a hint of possibility in
his shining scheme. But it is beyond me to report the persuasive
reasonableness of all I heard, for the truth is that Julius spoke
another language--a language incomprehensible to my mind to-day. His
words, indeed, were those of modern schools and books, but the spirit
that ensouled them belonged to a forgotten time. Only by means of some
strange inner sympathy did I comprehend him. Another, an older type of
consciousness, perhaps, woke in me. As with the pictures, this also
seemed curiously familiar as I listened. Something in me old as the
stars and wiser than the brain both heard and understood.
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