“And now,” says the forlorn woman, in a faint, hollow voice, “when my
ambition seemed served-I was ambitious, perhaps vain-I found myself the
victim of an intrigue. I ask forgiveness of Him who only can forgive
the wicked; but how can I expect to gain it?” She presses Tom’s hand,
and pauses for a second. “Yes, I was ambitious,” she continues, “and
there was something I wanted. I had money enough to live in comfort,
but the thought that it was got of vice and the ruin of others, weighed
me down. I wanted the respect of the world. To die a forgotten wretch;
to have the grave close over me, and if remembered at all, only with
execration, caused me many a dark thought.” Here she struggles to
suppress her emotions. “I sought to change my condition; that, you see,
has brought me here. I married one to whom I intrusted my all, in whose
rank, as represented to me by Mr. Snivel, and confirmed by his friend,
the Judge, I confided. I hoped to move with him to a foreign country,
where the past would all be wiped out, and where the associations of
respectable society would be the reward of future virtue.
“In London, where I now reap the fruits of my vanity, we enjoyed good
society for a time, were sought after, and heaped with attentions. But
I met those who had known me; it got out who I was; I was represented
much worse than I was, and even those who had flattered me in one
sphere, did not know me. In Paris it was the same. And there my husband
said it would not do to be known by his titles, for, being an exile, it
might be the means of his being recognized and kidnapped, and carried
back a prisoner to his own dear Poland. In this I acquiesced, as I did
in everything else that lightened his cares. Gradually he grew cold and
morose towards me, left me for days at a time, and returned only to
abuse and treat me cruelly. He had possession of all my money, which I
soon found he was gambling away, without gaining an entr‚e for me into
society.
“From Paris we travelled, as if without any settled purpose, into
Italy, and from thence to Vienna, where I discovered that instead of
being a prince, my husband was an impostor, and I his dupe. He had
formerly been a crafty shoemaker; was known to the police as a
notorious character, who, instead of having been engaged in the
political struggles of his countrymen, had fled the country to escape
the penalty of being the confederate of a desperate gang of coiners and
counterfeiters. We had only been two days in Vienna when I found he had
disappeared, and left me destitute of money or friends. My connection
with him only rendered my condition more deplorable, for the police
would not credit my story; and while he eluded its vigilance, I was
suspected of being a spy in the confidence of a felon, and ruthlessly
ordered to leave the country.”
“Did not your passport protect you?” interrupts Tom, with evident
feeling.
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