Perhaps it was this meeting which made Somers want to see Kangaroo once
more. Everything had suddenly become unreal to him. He went to Sydney
and to Cooley’s rooms. But during the first half hour, the revulsion
from the First persisted. Somers disliked his appearance, and the
kangaroo look made him feel devilish. And then the queer, slow manner of
approach. Kangaroo was not really ready for his visitor, and he seemed
dense, heavy, absent, clownish. It was that kangarooish clownishness
that made a vicious kind of hate spring into Somers’ face. He talked in
a hard, cutting voice.
“Whom can you depend on, in this world,” he was saying. “Look at these
Australians--they’re awfully nice, but they’ve got no inside to them.
They’re hollow. How are you going to built on such hollow stalks. They
may well call them corn-stalks. They’re marvellous and manly and
independent and all that, outside. But inside, they are not. When
they’re _quite_ alone, they don’t exist.”
“Yet many of them have been alone a long time, in the bush,” said
Kangaroo, watching his visitor with slow, dumb, unchanging eyes.
“Alone, what sort of alone. Physically alone. And they’ve just gone
hollow. They’re never alone in spirit: quite, quite alone in spirit. And
the people who have are the only people you can depend on.”
“Where shall I find them?”
“Not here. It seems to me, least of all here. The Colonies make for
_outwardness_. Everything is outward--like hollow stalks of corn. The
life makes this inevitable: all that struggle with bush and water and
what-not, all the mad struggle with the material necessities and
conveniences--the inside soul just withers and goes into the outside,
and they’re all just lusty robust hollow stalks of people.”
“The corn-stalks bear the corn. I find them generous to
recklessness--the greatest quality. The old world is cautious and
forever bargaining about its soul. Here they don’t bother to bargain.”
“They’ve no soul to bargain about. But they’re even more full of
conceit. What do you expect to do with such people. Build a straw
castle?”
“You see I believe in them--perhaps I know them a little better than you
do.”
“Perhaps you do. It’ll be cornstalk castle, for all that. What _do_ you
expect to build on?”
“They’re generous--generous to recklessness,” shouted Kangaroo. “And I
love them. I love them. Don’t you come here carping to me about them.
They are my children, I love them. If I’m not to believe in their
generosity, am I to believe in your cautious, old-world carping, do you
think. I _won’t_!” he shouted fiercely. “I _won’t_. Do you hear that!”
And he sat hulked in his chair glowering like some queer dark god at
bay. Somers paused, and his heart failed.
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