Perhaps, said Somers to himself, I am just a Pommy and a fool. If my
blood had thinned down, I shouldn’t make all this fuss over sharing in
with Kangaroo or being mates with Jack Callcott. If I am not a ruddy
Pommy, I am a green one. Of course they take the thing as it comes to
them, and they expect me to do the same. Yet there I am hopping and
hissing like a fish in a frying-pan. Putting too much “soul” into it.
Far too much. When your blood has thinned down, out here, there’s
nothing but the merest sediment of a soul left, and your wits and your
feelings are clear of it. You take things as they come, as Jack says.
Isn’t that the sanest way to take them, instead of trying to drive them
through the exact hole in the hedge that you’ve managed to poke your
head through? Oh, you unlearn a lot as your blood thins down. But
there’s an awful lot to be unlearnt. And when you’ve unlearnt it, you
never say so. In the first place, because it’s dead against the sane old
British tradition. And in the second place, because you don’t really
care about telling what you feel, once your blood has thinned down and
is clear of soul.
“Thin, you Australian burgundy,” said Somers to his own body, when he
caught a glimpse of it unawares, reflected in the glass as he was going
to bed. “You’re thin enough as a bottle, but the wine needs a lot of
maturing. I’ve made a fool of myself latterly.”
Yet he said to himself: “Do I want my blood to thin down like
theirs?--that peculiar emptiness that is in them, because of the
thinning that’s gone out of them? Do I want this curious transparent
blood of the antipodes, with its momentaneous feelings, and its sort of
_absentness_? But of course till my blood has thinned down I shan’t see
with their eyes. And how in the name of heaven is this world-brotherhood
mankind going to see with one eye, eye to eye, when the very blood is of
different thickness on different continents, and with the difference in
blood, the inevitable psychic difference? Different vision!”
CHAP: VIII. VOLCANIC EVIDENCE
Richard Lovat Somers registered a new vow: not to take things with too
overwhelming an amount of emotional seriousness, but to accept
everything that came along with a certain _sang froid_, and not to sit
frenziedly in judgment before he had heard the case. He had come to the
end of his own tether, so why should he go off into tantrums if other
folks strayed about with the broken bits of their tethers trailing from
their ankles. Is it better to be savagely tugging at the end of your
rope, or to wander at random tetherless? Matter of choice!
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