“I believe they are. It’s the afterwards.”
“Oh, well--afterwards is afterwards, as Jack always says.” Again the two
men were silent.
“If they cared deeply--” Somers began slowly--but he did not continue,
it seemed fatuous. Jaz did not answer for some time.
“You see, it hasn’t come to that with them,” he said. “It might,
perhaps, once they’d actually done the thing. It might come home to them
then; they might _have_ to care. It might be a force-put. _Then_ they’d
need a man.”
“They’ve got Kangaroo,” said Somers.
“You think Kangaroo would get them over the fence?” said Jaz carefully,
looking up at Somers.
“He seems as if he would. He’s a wonderful person. And there seems no
alternative to him.”
“Oh yes, he’s a wonderful person. Perhaps a bit too much of a wonder. A
hatchet doesn’t look anything like so spanking as a lawn-mower, does it
now, but it’ll make a sight bigger clearing.”
“That’s true,” said Somers, laughing. “But Kangaroo isn’t a lawn-mower.”
“Oh, I don’t say so,” smiled Jaz, fidgetting on his chair. “I should
like to hear your rock-bottom opinion of him though.”
“I should like to hear yours,” said Somers. “You know him much better
than I do. I haven’t got a rock-bottom opinion of him yet.”
“It’s not a matter of the time you’ve known him,” said Jaz. He was
manifestly hedging, and trying to get at something. “You know I belong
to his gang, don’t you?”
“Yes,” said Somers, wondering at the word ‘gang.’
“And for that reason I oughtn’t to criticise him, ought I?”
Somers reflected for some moments.
“There’s no oughts, if you _feel_ critical,” he answered.
“I think you feel critical of him yourself at times,” said Jaz, looking
up with a slow, subtle smile of cunning: like a woman’s disconcerting
intuitive knowledge. It laid Somers’ soul bare for the moment. He
reflected. He had pledged no allegiance to Kangaroo.
“Yet,” he said aloud to Jaz, “if I _had_ joined him I wouldn’t want to
hinder him.”
“No, we don’t want to hinder him. But we need to know where we are.
Supposing you were in my position--and you _didn’t_ feel sure of things!
A man has to look things in the face. You yourself, now--you’re holding
back, aren’t you?”
“I suppose I am,” said Richard. “But then I hold back from everything.”
Jaz looked at him searchingly.
“You don’t like to commit yourself?” he said, with a sly smile.
“Not altogether that. I’d commit myself, if I could. It’s just something
inside me shakes its head and holds back.”
Jaz studied his knuckles for some time.
“Yes,” he said slowly. “Perhaps you can afford to stand out. You’ve got
your life in other things. Some of us feel we haven’t got any life if
we’re not--if we’re not mixed up in something.” He paused, and Richard
waited. “But the point is this--” Jaz looked up again with his
light-grey, serpent’s eyes. “Do you yourself see Kangaroo pulling it
off?” There was a subtle mockery in the question.
“What?”
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