“Oh, you’ll come back to caring, I should think: for the sake of having
something to care about. That’s what most of them do. They want to turn
bushrangers for six months, and then they get frightened of themselves,
and come back and want to be good citizens.”
“Bushranger? But Australia’s like an open door with the blue beyond. You
just walk out of the world and into Australia. And it’s just somewhere
else. All those nations left behind in their schoolrooms, fussing. Let
them fuss. This is Australia, where one can’t care.”
Jaz sat rather pale, and ten times more silent than ever.
“I expect you’ve got yourself to reckon with, no matter where you are.
That’s why most Australians have to fuss about something--politics, or
horse-racing, or football. Though a man can go empty in Australia, if he
likes: as you’ve said yourself,” replied he.
“Then I’ll go empty,” said Richard. “What makes _you_ fuss with Kangaroo
and Struthers, Jaz?”
“Me?” The smile was slow and pale. “Go into the middle of Australia and
see how empty it is. You can’t face emptiness long. You have to come
back and do something to keep from being frightened at your own
emptiness, and everything else’s emptiness. It may be empty. But it’s
wicked, and it’ll kill you if it can. Something comes out of the
emptiness, to kill you. You have to come back and do things with
mankind, to forget.”
“It’s wonderful to be empty. It’s wonderful to feel this blue globe of
emptiness of the Australian air. It shuts everything out,” protested
Richard.
“You’ll be an Aussie yet,” smiled Jaz slowly.
“Shall I regret it?” asked Richard.
The eyes of the two men met. In the pale grey eyes of Jaz something
lurking, like an old, experienced consciousness looking across at the
childish consciousness of Somers, almost compassionately: and half in
mockery.
“You’ll change back before you regret it,” he said.
“Are you wise, Jaz? And am I childish?” Richard’s look suddenly changed
also to mockery. “If you’re wise, Jaz, why do you wander round like a
lost soul? Because you do. And what takes you to Struthers, if you
belong to Kangaroo?”
“I’m secretary for the coal- and timber-merchants’ union,” said Jaz
quietly.
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