“You are hopelessly facile, Lovat,” he said gently. “In the first place,
the greatest danger to the world to-day is anarchy, not bolshevism. It
is anarchy and unrule that are coming on us--and that is what I, as an
order-loving Jew and one of the half-chosen people, do not want. I want
one central principle in the world: the principle of love, the maximum
of individual liberty, the minimum of human distress. Lovat, you know I
am sincere, don’t you?”
There was a certain dignity and pathos in the question.
“I do,” replied Somers sincerely. “But I am tired of one central
principle in the world.”
“Anything else means chaos.”
“There has to be chaos occasionally. And then, Roo, if you _do_ want a
benevolent fatherly autocracy, I’m sure you’d better step in after
there’s been a bit of chaos.”
Kangaroo shook his head.
“Like a wayward child! Like a wayward child!” he murmured. “You are not
such a fool, Lovat, that you can’t see that once you break the last
restraints on humanity to-day, it is the end. It is the end. Once burst
the flood-gates, and you’ll never get the water back into control.
Never.”
“Then let it distil up to heaven. I really don’t care.”
“But man, you are _perverse_. What’s the matter with you?” suddenly
bellowed Kangaroo.
They had gone into the study for coffee. Kangaroo stood with his head
dropped and his feet apart, his back to the fire. And suddenly he roared
like a lion at Somers. Somers started, then laughed.
“Even perversity has its points,” he said.
Kangaroo glowered like a massive cloud. Somers was standing staring at
the Dürer etching of St Jerome: he loved Dürer. Suddenly, with a great
massive movement, Kangaroo caught the other man to his breast.
“Don’t, Lovat,” he said, in a much moved voice, pressing the slight body
of the lesser man against his own big breast and body. “Don’t!” he said,
with a convulsive tightening of the arm.
Somers, squeezed so that he could hardly breathe, kept his face from
Kangaroo’s jacket and managed to ejaculate:
“All right. Let me go and I won’t.”
“Don’t thwart me,” pleaded Kangaroo. “Don’t--or I shall have to break
all connection with you, and I love you so. I love you so. Don’t be
perverse, and put yourself against me.”
He still kept Somers clasped against him, but not squeezed so hard. And
Somers heard over his own head the voice speaking with a blind yearning.
Not to himself. No. It was speaking over his head, to the void, to the
infinite or something tiresome like that. Even the words: “I love you
so. I love you so.” They made the marrow in Lovat’s bones melt, but they
made his heart flicker even more devilishly.
“It is an impertinence, that he says he loves me,” he thought to
himself. But he did not speak, out of regard for Kangaroo’s emotion,
which was massive and genuine, even if Somers felt it missed his own
particular self completely.
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