And this autumn Richard Lovat seemed to drift back. He had a passion, a
profound nostalgia for the place. He could feel himself metamorphosing.
He no longer wanted to struggle consciously along, a thought adventurer.
He preferred to drift into a sort of blood-darkness, to take up in his
veins again the savage vibrations that still lingered round the secret
rocks, the place of the pre-Christian human sacrifice. Human sacrifice!
he could feel his dark, blood-consciousness tingle to it again, the
desire of it, the mystery of it. Old presences, old awful presences
round the black moor-edge, in the thick dusk, as the sky of light was
pushed pulsing upwards, away. Then an owl would fly and hoot, and
Richard lay with his soul departed back, back into the blood-sacrificial
pre-world, and the sun-mystery, and the moon-power, and the mistletoe on
the tree, away from his own white world, his own white, conscious day.
Away from the burden of intensive mental consciousness. Back, back into
semi-dark, the half-conscious, the _clair-obscur_, where consciousness
pulsed as a passional vibration, not as mind-knowledge.
Then would come John Thomas with the wain, and the two men would linger
putting up the sheaves, linger, talking, till the dark, talking of the
half-mystical things with which they both were filled. John Thomas, with
his nervous ways and his quick brown eyes, was full of fear: fear of
the unseen, fear of the unknown malevolencies, above all, fear of death.
So they would talk of death, and the powers of death. And the farmer, in
a non-mental way, understood, understood even more than Somers.
And then in the first dark they went down the hill with the wain, to
part at the cottage door. And to Harriet, with her pure Teutonic
consciousness, John Thomas’ greeting would sound like a jeer, as he
called to her. And Somers seemed to come home like an enemy, like an
enemy, with that look on his face, and that pregnant malevolency of
Cornwall investing him. It was a bitter time, to Harriet. Yet glamorous
too.
Autumn drew on, corn-harvest was over, it was October. John Thomas drove
every Thursday over the moors to market--a two hours’ drive. To-day
Somers would go with him--and Ann the sister also, to do some shopping.
It was a lovely October morning. They passed the stony little huddle of
the church-town, and on up the hill, where the great granite boulders
shoved out of the land, and the barrenness was ancient and inviolable.
They could see the gulls under the big cliffs beyond--and there was a
buzzard circling over the marshy place below church-town. A Cornish,
magic morning. John Thomas and Somers were walking up the hill, leaving
the reins to Ann, seated high in the trap.
“One day, when the war ends, before long,” said Somers as they climbed
behind the trap in the sun, past the still-flickering gorse-bushes, “we
will go far across the sea--to Mexico, to Australia--and try living
there. You must come too, and we will have a farm.”
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