That is the beginning and end, the alpha and the omega, the one
absolute: the man alone by himself, alone with his own soul, alone with
his eyes on the darkness which is the dark god of life. Alone like a
pythoness on her tripod, like the oracle alone above the fissure into
the unknown. The oracle, the fissure down into the unknown, the strange
exhalations from the dark, the strange words that the oracle must utter.
Strange, cruel, pregnant words: the new term of consciousness.
This is the innermost symbol of man: alone in the darkness of the cavern
of himself, listening to soundlessness of inflowing fate. Inflowing
fate, inflowing doom, what does it matter? The man by himself--that is
the absolute--listening--that is the relativity--for the influx of his
fate, or doom.
The man by himself. The listener.
But most men can’t listen any more. The fissure is closed up. There is
no soundless voice. They are deaf and dumb, ants, scurrying ants.
That is their doom. It is a new kind of absolute. Like riff-raff, which
has fallen out of living relativity, on to the teeming absolute of the
dust-heap, or the ant-heap. Sometimes the dust-heap becomes huge, huge,
huge, and covers nearly all the world. Then it turns into a volcano, and
all starts again.
“It has nothing to do with me,” said Richard to himself. I hope, dear
reader, you like plenty of _conversation_ in a novel: it makes it so
much lighter and brisker.
“It has nothing to do with me,” said Richard to himself. “They do as
they like. But since, after all, I _am_ a kind-hearted dear creature, I
will just climb the minaret of myself and sound my muezzin.”
So behold the poor dear on his pinnacle lifting his hands.
“God is God and man is man; and every man by himself. Every man by
himself, alone with his own soul. Alone as if he were dead. Dead to
himself. He is dead and alone. He is dead; alone. His soul is alone.
Alone with God, with the dark God. God is God.”
But if he likes to shout muezzins, instead of hawking fried fish or
newspapers or lottery tickets, let him.
Poor dear, it was rather an anomalous call: “Listen to me, and be
alone.” Yet he felt called upon to call it.
To be alone, to be alone, and to rest on the unknown God alone.
The God must be unknown. Once you have defined him or described him, he
is the most chummy of pals, as you’ll know if you listen to preachers.
And once you’ve chummed up with your God, you’ll never be alone again,
poor you. For that’s the end of you. You and your God chumming it
through time and eternity.
Poor Richard saw himself in funny situations.
“My dear young lady, let me entreat you, be alone, only be alone.”
“Oh, Mr Somers, I should love to, if you’d hold my hand.”
“There is a gulf,” growing sterner, “surrounds each solitary soul. A
gulf surrounds you--a gulf surrounds me--”
“_I’m falling!_” shrieks and flings her arms around his neck. Or
Kangaroo.
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