But that day, after Aunt Jane had showed her the Carter leader in the
paper, Kate went to her room, and somehow her thoughts went back to
Henry Austin. She tried to analyze why she had ever got engaged to
him. As far as she could define it, a sort of empty space, a partial
vacuum, had come into her life, and Austin appeared, and in a tentative
way seemed to fill it. Now that he was gone, the vacuum returned. It
did not exactly ache, but it caused a vague discomfort that annoyed
her, and when she demanded a cure, something within her kept repeating,
"Carter, Carter, Carter!"
She resented this clamor. She told herself that she was a strong
woman. She refused to have her hand forced. She declined to allow an
ex-employe of her own to be forced into her life as its only
complement. And still that inner something, with irritating
persistency, kept repeating, "Carter, Carter," and then got
unpleasantly familiar, and began to murmur: "George."
She stood it for an hour, stood for that time persistent, inward voices
urging her, with never a falter, to one narrow course, and then she got
up from her great cushioned chair and went to an old Sheraton bureau.
Only one narrow drawer in it was locked, and she carried the key of
that amongst the charms on her watch-bangle. She opened the drawer and
took from it a photograph.
It was only a steamer group, crudely taken by an amateur on a kodak
film, a very imperfect thing at its best, and mottled now by the
persistent West African mildew. A piece of brown paper with a hole in
it was in the same drawer, a mask so cut that it blocked out all of the
group except one individual. She fitted this into place and gazed her
fill on this very crude presentment of George Carter.
[Illustration: She gazed her fill on this very crude presentment of
George Carter.]
Well, at any rate he was not a handsome man. But there was something
about even this indifferent photograph that gave her a great thrill.
It touched some inward chord that no other power on earth could set
into vibration, and she was discomforted thereby.
The gong went for dinner. She ignored it. A servant came
presently--she had added to the number of servants at the Prince's Park
house and Mrs. Craven accepted the alteration passively--and the
servant most respectfully stated that dinner would be served in ten
minutes, and was not Miss Kate going up to dress? But Miss Kate was
busy and would have a cup of tea and a sandwich.
Mrs. Craven below got the news, smiled grimly, and ate an extremely
good dinner. She felt a fine satisfaction in having set to work
exactly the right influences which would bring that ridiculous Kitty to
her senses.
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