Feminist fiction, Australian; Sex role -- Fiction; Short stories, Australian; Women -- Fiction
"You love me; I know it, you other half of me. You want me to
complete your life, as I you, you good, sweet woman; you slight,
weak thing, with your strong will and your grand, great heart; you
witch, with a soul of clean white fire. I kiss your hands,--such
little hands! I never saw the like; slim child-hands, with a touch
as cool and as soft as a snow-flake! You dear one, come to me; I
want you, now, always. Be with me, work with me, share with me,
live with me, my equal as a creature; above me, as my queen of
women! I love you, I worship you; but you know my views. I cannot,
I will not bind myself to you by any legal or religious tie. I must
be free and unfettered to follow that which I believe right for
me. If you come to me in all trust, I can and will give myself to
you in all good faith,--yours as much as you will, forever! I will
kneel to you; why should I always desire to kneel to you? It is not
that I stand in awe of you, or that I ever feel a need to kneel at
all; but always to you, and to you alone. Come! I will crouch at
your feet and swear myself to you!"
And she had replied "No!" and in her loneliness of spirit married him
who seemed to need her most out of those who admired her.
The door opens, and he comes in. He looks inquiringly at her, touches
her hair half hesitatingly, and then stands with his hands thrust in
his pockets and gnaws his mustache.
"Are you angry, little woman?"
"No," very quietly; "why should I be?"
She closes her eyes again, and after five minutes' silence he begins to
undress. He does it very slowly, looking perplexedly at her. When he
has finished, he stands with his back to the fire, an unlovely object
in sleeping suit.
"Would you like to read her letter?"
She shakes her head.
"I suppose I ought to have sent her back her letters before, you know.
She hadn't heard I was married."
"Yes," she interjects, "it would have been better to start with a clean
bill; but why talk about it?"
He looks at her awhile, then gets into bed and watches her from behind
the pages of the "Field." It seems unusually quiet. His watch that he
has left in his waistcoat pocket, thrown across the back of a chair,
seems to fill the whole room with a nervous tick.
He tosses the paper on to the floor. She looks up as it falls, rises,
turns off the gas-jet, sinks back into her old position, and stares
into the fire. He gets up, goes over, and kneels down next her.
"I am awfully sorry you are put out, old girl. I saw you were when I
answered you like that; but I couldn't help feeling a bit cut up, you
know. She wrote such an awfully nice letter, you know, wished--"
"You all sorts of happiness," with a snap, "and hopes you'll meet in a
better world?"
He rises to his feet and stares at her in dumb amazement. How could she
know? She smiles with a touch of malicious satisfaction, as she sees
the effect of her chance shot.
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