The young man considered for a moment, and then answered,--
"No, not in love exactly. But she represents what I have come to
desire. I get so terribly lonely, Geoffrey, and I must have some one,
some woman, of course; and I hate intrigue and adultery. Yaé never
grates upon me. I hate the twaddling activities of our modern
women, their little sports, their little sciences, their little
earnestnesses, their little philanthropies, their little imitations of
men's ways. I like the seraglio type of woman, lazy and vain, a little
more than a lovely animal. I can play with her, and hear her purring.
She must have no father or mother or brothers or sisters or any social
scheme to entangle me in. She must have no claim on my secret mind,
she must not be jealous of my music, or expect explanations. Still
less explain me to others,--a wife who shows one round like a monkey,
what horror!"
"But Reggie! old chap, does she love you?"
Geoffrey's ideas were stereotyped. To his mind, only great love on
both sides could excuse so bizarre a marriage.
"Love!" cried Reggie. "What is Love? I can feel Love in music. I can
feel it in poetry. I can see it in sunshine, in the wet woods, and in
the phosphorescent sea. But in actual life! I think of things in too
abstract a way ever to feel in love with anybody. So I don't think
anybody could really fall in love with me. It is like religious faith.
I have no faith, and yet I believe in faith. I have no love, and yet
I have a great love for love. Blessed are they who have not seen, and
yet have believed!"
When Reggie was in this mood Geoffrey despaired of getting any sense
out of him, and he felt that the occasion was too serious for smiles.
They were walking back to the hotel in the direction of breakfast.
"Reggie, are you quite sure?" said his friend, solemnly.
"No, of course I'm not, I never could be."
"And are you intending to get married soon?"
"Not immediately, no: and all this is quite in confidence, please."
"I'm glad there's no hurry," grunted Geoffrey. He knew that the girl
was light and worthless; but to have shown Reggie his proofs would
have been to admit his own complicity; and to give a woman away
so callously would be a greater offence against Good Form than his
momentary and meaningless trespass.
"But there is one thing you have forgotten," said. Reggie, rather
bitterly.
"What's that, old chap?"
"When a fellow announces his engagement to the dearest little girl
in all the world, his friends offer their congratulations. It's Good
Form," he added maliciously.
CHAPTER XVII
THE RAINY SEASON
_Fugu-jiru no
Ware ikite ir
Ne-zame kana!_
Poisonous delicacies (last night)!
I awake
And I am still alive.
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