Kirsteen: The Story of a Scotch Family Seventy Years AgoOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Kirsteen: The Story of a Scotch Family Seventy Years Ago
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Domestic fiction; Scotland -- Fiction
After this there was a long interval in her intercourse with Lord John.
He wandered about the glen and the hillside, but she took care never to
fall in his way, the excitement of eluding him making a kind of
counterpoise for the absence of the excitement there used to be in
meeting him. And then he began to make frequent calls, to endure
interviews with Drumcarro and inquire into Mrs. Douglas’s ailments in
order to see Jeanie, to whom he directed the most appealing looks. And
the impression and suspicion gradually died away from her mind. When she
met him by accident after this interval out of doors, and he was free to
demand explanations, Jeanie hung her head and said nothing. How could
she explain? She had nothing to explain. And once more, though with
self-reproach, the daily walks and talks were resumed. In her dull life
it was the only relief. Her mother was growing more and more helpless
and wanted more and more attention. And when Jeanie stole out from her
long nursing for a breath of air no doubt it pleased and exhilarated her
to see him waiting, to receive his welcome and all the tender words he
could think of. Drumcarro himself saw them together, and made no remark.
Marg’ret saw them together and was glad and proud to see the favourite
of the house courted by the Duke’s son. Thus no one helped Jeanie, but
everything persuaded her against her own perception that all was not
well.
That perception, however, grew stronger and stronger, but with it a
longing of Jeanie’s forlorn youth for the only pleasure that remained in
her life. He flattered her so, he conveyed to her in every word and look
such evidence of her own delightfulness, of her power over him, and his
devotion to her! And all the rest of life was so overcast to Jeanie, so
dull and grey, so destitute of pleasure. It was like a momentary escape
into that Italian bower of which he spoke, to go out to him, to see his
eyes glowing with admiration, to hear of all the delightsome things
which were waiting for her. Day by day it became more clear to Jeanie
that Lord John’s love was not like that of those downright wooers at
whom she had once scoffed, who would have her answer yes or no, and left
nothing vague in respect to their wishes. It occurred to her too, though
she would not permit it to put itself into words, even in her mind, that
his love was not like that which she had been so sure of in Lewis
Gordon’s eyes, but which had never been spoken. Lord John was bold,
there was no timidity nor reverence in his look, he was confident,
excited, sure that he had her in his toils. All these the girl saw with
the perspicacity of despair--yet could not free herself or break away.
With him she divined there might be shame lying in wait for her, but
with him, too, was all that was brilliant and fair in life. A time of
splendour, of pleasure, of joy, if after that despair--while within her
own possibilities there was nothing but the given routine, the dull
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