Well, I should say it did! I quit living, and began thinking in a
hooray, and so did every one else at our house. Once I had been sick
and queened it over them for a while, now all of us strained ourselves
trying to wait on Shelley; but she wouldn't have it. She only said she
was tired to death, to let her rest, and she turned her face to the
wall and lay there. Once she said she never wanted to see a city again
so long as she lived. When mother told her about Laddie and the
Princess to try to interest her, she never said a word; I doubted if
she even listened. Father and mother looked at each other, when they
thought no one would see, and their eyes sent big, anxious questions
flashing back and forth. I made up my mind I'd keep awake that night
and hear what they said, if I had to take pins to bed with me and stick
myself.
Once mother said to Shelley that she was going to send for Dr. Fenner,
and she answered: "All right, if you need him. Don't you dare for me!
I'll not see him. All I want is a little peace and rest."
The idea! Not one of us ever had spoken to mother like that before in
all our born days. I held my breath to see what she would do, but she
didn't seem to have heard it, or to notice how rude it had been. Well,
THAT told about as plain as anything what we had on our hands. I
wandered around and NOW there was no trouble about thinking things.
They came in such a jumble I could get no sense from them; but one big
black thought came over, and over, and over, and wouldn't be put away.
It just stood, stayed, forced you, and made you look it in the face.
If Shelley weren't stopped quickly she was going up on the hill with
the little fever and whooping cough sisters. There it was! You could
try to think other things, to play, to work, to talk it down in the
pulpit, to sing it out in a tree, to slide down the haystack away from
it--there it stayed! And every glimpse you had of Shelley made it
surer.
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