"And doesn't it rouse the devil in you when she does! Never mind! I'm
pleased to see it. It's a healthy sign under the circumstances. You'll
need a good supply of that pride to see you through the next month, and
I guess there's no fear of its running out." Then her face sobered, and
her voice took a serious tone. "Cassandra! you must try to be fair to
Teresa. She's young and crude, and opinionated, but this has been a
great big test, and she's been rather--_fine_. I never admired anything
more than her composure that day on the cliff. It wasn't because she
didn't feel. The slight must have been all the worse, just because she
is so complacent and sure of herself. She went through torture with her
lips shut. She's even more to be pitied than you, Cassandra, for she
_was_ happy, and she believed so firmly that she was going to be happy
ever after, and now--at the best--it can never be the same--"
Cassandra interposed with a sharp-cut question.
"What do you mean by `the best'?"
"From her point of view,--that he should eventually marry her, and make
the best of what remains. It's pretty hard on a girl of twenty-four to
know that her lover has to nerve himself up to take her like a
disagreeable tonic which may eventually do him good. I could not have
stood it; I'm quite sure _you_ couldn't, but Teresa can. The bull-dog
quality in her won't let go; she can sit tight and wait, and it's the
waiters who win. She will go through a bad time, but in the end--"
Grizel met Cassandra's flashing eyes, and said gently, "Dear! if you had
the choice, wouldn't you rather think of him in the future with a home
and children, happy again, if not just in the same way, rather than as a
lonely man, eating his heart out for what he couldn't have?"
"No!" cried Cassandra defiantly. "No! I want him to remember. I
_want_ him to think. I'd rather anything happened than that he should
forget..."
Then Grizel laughed, a soft, tender little laugh, and looking back on
that scene in the days which followed, Cassandra knew that more than for
any words of comfort, she was grateful for that laugh. There was in it
the tenderness which a nurse bestows upon the railings of pain-racked
sufferers, and with it a beautiful incredulity which refused to believe
mere words, and set her faith on the force within, content to wait until
it should resume the mastery.
The task of a comforter is only less difficult than that of the sufferer
himself. He has need of infinite tenderness, infinite tolerance, above
all, of infinite patience. Not in one hour, or one week, or one month
will his solace work its effect; again and again must he open his heart,
and pour forth all that is his of wisdom, and strength and inspiration,
only to find himself thrown back to the very position from which he
started.
"Oh, Grizel!" cried Cassandra sharply. "Why did you come? Why did you
interrupt us? And oh, what are we to do? What shall we do?"
CHAPTER TWENTY SEVEN.
THE SUMMONS.
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