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Constance broke it. “Wounded pride, and stubborn will were hot within
her.
“Well, it is a great pity we should have been sparring like this. I
can’t remember who began it. But now I suppose I may do what I like
with the dances I promised you?”
“I keep no one to their word who means to break it,” said Falloden
coldly.
Constance grew suddenly white.
“That”—she said quietly—“was unpardonable!”
“It was. I retract it.”
“No. You have said it—which means that you could think it. That decides
it.”
They rode on in silence. As they neared the gate, Constance, whose face
showed agitation and distress, said abruptly—
“Of course I know I must seem very ungrateful—”
A sound, half bitter, half scornful from Falloden stopped her. She
threw her head back defiantly.
“All the same I could be grateful enough, in my own way, if you would
let me. But what you don’t understand is that men can’t lord it over
women now as they used to do. You say—you”—she stammered a little—“you
love me. I don’t know yet—what I feel. I feel many different things.
But I know this: A man who forbids me to do this and that—to talk to
this person—or dance with some one else—a man who does not trust and
believe in me—if I were ever so much in love with him, I would not
marry him! I should feel myself a coward and a slave!”
“One is always told”—said Falloden hoarsely—“that love makes it easy to
grant even the most difficult things. And I have begged the merest
trifle.”
“‘Begged’?” said Constance, raising her eyebrows. “You issued a decree.
I am not to dance with Radowitz—and I am not to see so much of Mr.
Sorell—if I am to keep your—friendship. I demurred. You repeated it—as
though you were responsible for what I do, and had a right to command
me. Well, that does not suit me. I am perfectly free, and I have given
you no right to arrange my life for me. So now let us understand each
other.”
Falloden shrugged his shoulders.
“You have indeed made it perfectly plain!”
“I meant to,” said Constance vehemently.
But they could not keep their eyes from each other. Both were pale. In
both the impulse to throw away pride and hold out a hand of yielding
was all but strong enough to end their quarrel. Both suffered, and if
the truth were told, both were standing much deeper than before in the
midstream of passion.
But neither spoke another word—till the gate was reached.
Falloden opened it, and backed his horse out of Connie’s way. In the
road outside, at a little distance, the groom was waiting.
“Good-bye,” said Falloden, with ceremonious politeness. “I wish I had
not spoilt your ride. Please do not give up riding in the woods,
because you might be burdened with my company. I shall never intrude
upon you. All the woodmen and keepers have been informed that you have
full permission. The family will be all away till the autumn. But the
woodmen will look after you, and give you no trouble.”
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