England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Love stories; Oxford (England) -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
“I tell you again”—said Falloden, speaking with a strong simplicity and
sincerity that was all the time undoing the impression he honestly
desired to make—“It’s a big risk for you—a temperament like mine—and
you ought to think it over seriously. And then”—he paused abruptly in
front of her, his hands in his pockets—“why should you—you’re so
young!—start life with any burden on you? Why should you? It’s
preposterous! I must look after Otto all his life.”
“So must I!” said Connie quickly. “That’s the same for both of us.”
“And then—you may forget it—but I can’t. I repeat—I’m a pauper. I’ve
lost Flood. I’ve lost everything that I could once have given you. I’ve
got about four thousand pounds left—just enough to start me at the
bar—when I’ve paid for the Orpheus. And I can’t take a farthing from my
mother or the other children. I should be just living upon you. How do
I know that I shall get on at the bar?”
Connie smiled; but her lips trembled.
“Do think it over,” he implored; and he walked away from her again, as
though to leave her free.
There was a silence. He turned anxiously to look at her.
“I seem”—said Connie, in a low voice that shook—“to have kissed
somebody—for nothing.”
That was the last stroke. He came back to her, and knelt beside her,
murmuring inarticulate things. With a sigh of relief, Connie subsided
upon his shoulder, conscious through all her emotion of the dear
strangeness of the man’s coat against her cheek. But presently, she
drew herself away, and looked him in the eyes, while her own swam.
“I love you”—she said deliberately—“because—well, first because I love
you!—that’s the only good reason, isn’t it; and then, because you’re so
sorry. And I’m sorry too. We’ve both got to make up—we’re going to make
up all we can.” Her sweet face darkened. “Oh, Douglas, it’ll take the
two of us—and even then we can’t do it! But we’ll help each other.”
And stooping she kissed him gently, lingeringly, on the brow. It was a
kiss of consecration.
A few minutes more, and then, with the Eighth Prelude swaying and
dancing round them, they went hand in hand down the long approach to
the music-room.
The door was open, and they saw the persons inside. Otto and Sorell
were walking up and down smoking cigarettes. The boy was radiant,
transformed. All look of weakness had disappeared; he held himself
erect; his shock of red-gold hair blazed in the firelight, and his eyes
laughed, as he listened silently, playing with his cigarette. Sorell
evidently was thinking only of him; but he too wore a look of quiet
pleasure.
Only Mrs. Mulholland sat watchful, her face turned towards the open
door. It wore an expression which was partly excitement, partly doubt.
Her snow-white hair above her very black eyes, and her frowning, intent
look, gave her the air of an old Sibyl watching at the cave’s mouth.
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