"So you," he said, almost in a whisper, "are the child she wrote to me
about before she died?"
Julie made a sign of assent.
"How old are you?"
"Twenty-nine."
"_She_ was thirty-two when I saw her last."
There was a silence. Julie lifted one of his hands and kissed it. But he
took no notice.
"You know that I was going to her, that I should have reached her in
time"--the words seemed wrung from him--"but that I was myself
dangerously ill?"
"I know. I remember it all."
"Did she speak of me?"
"Not often. She was very reserved, you remember. But not long before she
died--she seemed half asleep--I heard her say, 'Papa!--Blanche!' and
she smiled."
Lord Lackington's face contracted, and the slow tears of old age stood
in his eyes.
"You are like her in some ways," he said, brusquely, as though to cover
his emotion; "but not very like her."
"She always thought I was like you."
A cloud came over Lord Lackington's face. Julie rose from her knees and
sat beside him. He lost himself a few moments amid the painful ghosts of
memory. Then, turning to her abruptly, he said:
"You have wondered, I dare say, why I was so hard--why, for seventeen
years, I cast her off?"
"Yes, often. You could have come to see us without anybody knowing.
Mother loved you very much."
Her voice was low and sad. Lord Lackington rose, fidgeted restlessly
with some of the small ornaments on the mantel-piece, and at last
turned to her.
"She brought dishonor," he said, in the same stifled voice, "and the
women of our family have always been stainless. But that I could have
forgiven. After a time I should have resumed relations--private
relations--with her. But it was your father who stood in the way. I was
then--I am now--you saw me with that young fellow just now--quarrelsome
and hot-tempered. It is my nature." He drew himself up obstinately. "I
can't help it. I take great pains to inform myself, then I cling to my
opinions tenaciously, and in argument my temper gets the better of me.
Your father, too, was hot-tempered. He came, with my consent, once to
see me--after your mother had left her husband--to try and bring about
some arrangement between us. It was the Chartist time. He was a Radical,
a Socialist of the most extreme views. In the course of our conversation
something was said that excited him. He went off at score. I became
enraged, and met him with equal violence. We had a furious argument,
which ended in each insulting the other past forgiveness. We parted
enemies for life. I never could bring myself to see him afterwards, nor
to run the risk of seeing him. Your mother took his side and espoused
his opinions while he lived. After his death, I suppose, she was too
proud and sore to write to me. I wrote to her once--it was not the
letter it might have been. She did not reply till she felt herself
dying. That is the explanation of what, no doubt, must seem strange
to you."
[Illustration: "'FOR MY ROSE'S CHILD,' HE SAID, GENTLY"]
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