Lady Sybil's Choice: A Tale of the CrusadesHolt, Emily Sarah
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Lady Sybil's Choice: A Tale of the Crusades
Holt, Emily Sarah
Crusades -- Fiction; Historical fiction
"You will not like it," said she. "And if you drew the inference for
yourselves, you would be more likely to attend to the lesson conveyed."
"Oh, but we might do it wrong," I said.
Lady Judith laughed. "Am I, then, so infallible that I cannot do it
wrong?" said she. "Well, Sybil, my dear, if thou wouldst know, I think
thy tendency—I do not say thy passion, but thy tendency—is to idolatry."
"Oh!" cried Lady Sybil, looking quite distressed.
"But now, misunderstand me not," pursued Lady Judith. "Love is not
necessarily idolatry. When we love the creature _more_ than the
Creator—when, for instance, thou shalt care more to please thy lord than
to please the Lord—then only is it idolatry. Therefore, I use the word
tendency; I trust it is not more with thee.—Well, then, with Isabel"——
Lady Isabel gave a toss of her head,—a gesture to which she is very much
addicted.
"With Isabel," continued Lady Judith, "unselfishness would take the form
of resigning her own ease or pleasure to suit the convenience of
another, Her temptation, therefore, is to indolence and self-pleasing.
With Helena"——
I pricked up my ears. What was I going to hear?
"With Helena," said she, smiling on me, "it would be, I think, to fulfil
some duty, though those whom she loved might misunderstand her and think
her silly for it."
"Then what is my besetting sin, holy Mother?"
"Pride of intellect, I think," she answered; "very nearly the same as my
own."
"Holy Mother, you have left out Dame Eschine!" said Lady Isabel rather
sharply.
"Have I?" said Lady Judith. "Well, my children, you must ask the Lord
wherein Eschine’s selfishness lies, for I cannot tell. I dare not deny
its existence; I believe all sinners have it in some form. Only, in
this case, _I_ cannot detect it."
Eschine looked up with an expression of utter amazement.
"Holy Mother!" she exclaimed. "It seemed to me, as you went on, that I
had every one of those you mentioned."
Lady Judith’s smile was very expressive.
"Dear child," she said, "these are not my words,—’Blessed are the poor
in spirit; for theirs is the kingdom of the heavens.’"
Does she think Eschine the best of us all? Is she? Dear me! I never
should have thought it.
"Well!" said Lady Isabel, with a sort of snort, and another toss, "I am
quite sure that I have not one of those faults you mentioned."
"Ah, my child!" responded Lady Judith. "Take heed of the Pharisee
spirit—Eschine, what wouldst thou say was thy besetting sin?"
"I really cannot tell, I have so many!" answered Eschine modestly. "But
I sometimes think that it may be—perhaps—a want of meekness and
patience."
I stared at her in astonishment.
"Well, thank the saints, I am in no want of patience!" said Lady Isabel.
"And if any one knew all I have to try it"——
I turned and looked at her, if possible, in astonishment still greater.
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