Lady Sybil's Choice: A Tale of the CrusadesHolt, Emily Sarah
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Lady Sybil's Choice: A Tale of the Crusades
Holt, Emily Sarah
Crusades -- Fiction; Historical fiction
Our anxieties are all turned to rejoicing at once. Guy and Amaury
returned last night, having concluded a six months’ truce with Saladin:
and Eschine had the pleasure—I am sure she felt it a very great one—when
Amaury entered her chamber, of placing in his arms the boy for whom he
had so fervently longed, who was born three days before they came back.
Little Hugues—Amaury says that must be his name—seems as fine a child as
Héloïse, and as likely to live. Amaury was about as pleased as it is in
his nature to be; but he always seems to have his eyes fixed on the
wormwood of life rather than the honey.
"Thou hast shown some sense at last!" he said; and Eschine received this
very doubtful commendation as if it had been the most delightful
compliment. Then Amaury turned round, and snapped at me, because I could
not help laughing at his absurdity.
I asked Marguerite this evening what she thought was her chief fault.
"Ha!—the good God knows," she said. "It is very difficult to tell which
of one’s faults is the worst."
"But what dost thou think?" said I.
"Well," she answered, "I think that my chief fault is—with all
deference—the same as that of my Damoiselle: and that is pride. Only
that we are proud of different things."
"And of what art thou proud, Margot?" asked I laughingly, but rather
struck to find that she had hit on the same failing (in me) as Lady
Judith.
"Ha! My Damoiselle may well ask. And I cannot tell her. What is or
has an old villein woman, ignorant and foolish, to provoke pride? I only
know it is there. It does not fasten on one thing more than another,
but there it is. And pride is a very subtle sin, if it please my
Damoiselle. If I had nothing in the world to be proud of but that I was
the ugliest woman in it, I believe I could be proud of that."
I laughed. "Well, and wherein lies my pride, Margot?" said I, wishful
to see whether she altogether agreed with Lady Judith.
"Can I see into the inmost heart of my Damoiselle? It is like a shut-up
coffer, this human heart. I can only look on the outside, I. But on the
outside, I see two things. My Damoiselle is noble, and she is clever.
And she knows both."
"Which is the worse, Margot?"
"Ha! Both are bad enough, to make pride. But this I think: that even a
king can never fancy himself so noble as the good God; yet a good many
of us think ourselves quite as wise."
"O Margot!—who could think that?"
"Does my Damoiselle herself never think that she could arrange matters
better than the good God is ordering them? What is that, but to say in
our hearts, ’I am the wiser’?"
It is very queer, how Lady Judith and Marguerite always do think alike.
"Margot, who wouldst thou say was the holiest woman in this house?"
The answer was unhesitating.
"I do not know; I can only guess. But if my Damoiselle wishes me to
guess—the noble Lady Judith, and Dame Eschine."
How very odd!
"When I asked thee once before, Margot, thou didst not mention Eschine
at all."
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