Artists -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction
Lord Caterham saw all this, and understood her popularity; but he saw
too that with it all Annie Maurice was any thing but happy. Reiteration
of conventionality,--the reception of the callers and the paying of the
calls, the morning concerts and afternoon botanical promenades, the
occasional Opera-goings, and the set dinner-parties at home,--these
weighed heavily on her. She felt that her life was artificial, that she
had nothing in common with the people with whom it was passed, save
when she escaped to Lord Caterham's room. He was at least natural; she
need talk or act no conventionality with him; might read, or work, or
chat with him as she liked. But she wanted some purpose in life--that
Caterham saw, and saw almost with horror; for that purpose might tend
to take her away; and if she left him, he felt as though the only
bright portion of his life would leave him too.
Yes; he had begun to acknowledge this to himself. He had fought against
the idea, tried to laugh it off, but it had always recurred to him.
For the first time in his life, he had moments of happy expectancy
of an interview that was to come, hours of happy reflection over an
interview that was past. Of course the Carry-Chesterton times came
up in his mind; but these were very different. Then he was in a wild
state of excitement and tremor, of flushed cheeks and beating heart
and trembling lips; he thrilled at the sound of her voice; his blood,
usually so calm, coursed through his veins at the touch of her hand;
his passion was a delirium as alarming as it was intoxicating. The
love of to-day had nothing in common with that bygone time. There was
no similarity between Carry Chesterton's dash and _aplomb_ and Annie
Maurice's quiet domestic ways. The one scorched him with a glance;
the other soothed him with a word. How sweet it was to lie back in
his chair with half-shut eyes, as in a dream, and watch her moving
quietly about, setting every thing in order, putting fresh flowers in
his vases, dusting his writing-table, laughingly upbraiding the absent
Algy Barford, and taxing him with the delinquency of a half-smoked
cigar on the mantelpiece, and a pile of cigar-ash on the carpet.
Then he would bid her finish her house-work, and she would wheel his
chair to the table and read the newspapers to him, and listen to his
quaint, shrewd, generally sarcastic comments on all she read. And he
would sit, listening to the music of her voice, looking at the quiet
charms of her simply-banded glossy dark-brown hair, at the play of
feature illustrating every thing she read. It was a brother's love
he told himself at first, and fully believed it; a brother's love
for a favourite sister. He thought so until he pictured to himself
her departure to some friend's or other, until he imagined the house
without her, himself without her, and--and she with some one else. And
then Lord Caterham confessed to himself that he loved Annie Maurice
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