Artists -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction
"She's not strong," said Geoffrey, as he proceeded to
disembarrass himself of his outdoor attire, and to don his
"working-clothes,"--"she's not strong; and it's very odd she's not more
cheerful. I thought the child would have made it all right; but perhaps
it will when she's stronger." And Geoff sighed as he went to his work,
and sighed again once or twice as he pursued it.
Meanwhile Lord Caterham was thinking over the startling incident which
had just occurred. He was an observant man naturally, and the enforced
inaction of his life had increased this tendency; while his long
and deep experience of physical suffering and weakness had rendered
him acutely alive to any manifestations of a similar kind in other
people. Mrs. Ludlow's fainting-fit puzzled him. She had been looking
so remarkably well when she came in; there had been nothing feverish,
nothing suggestive of fictitious strength or over-exertion in her
appearance; no feebleness in her manner or languor in the tone of her
voice. The suddenness and completeness of the swoon were strange,--were
so much beyond the ordinary faintness which a drive undertaken a
little too soon might be supposed to produce,--and the expression of
Margaret's face, when she had recovered her consciousness, was so
remarkable, that Lord Caterham felt instinctively the true origin of
her illness had not been that assigned to it.
"She looked half-a-dozen years older," he thought; "and the few words
she said were spoken as if she were in a dream. I must be more mistaken
than I have ever been, or there is something very wrong about that
woman. And what a good fellow he is!--what a simple-hearted blundering
kind fellow! How wonderful his blindness is! I saw in a moment how he
loved her, how utterly uninterested she is in him and his affairs. I
hope there may be nothing worse than lack of interest; but I am afraid,
very much afraid for Ludlow."
And then Lord Caterham's thoughts wandered away from the artist and his
beautiful wife to that other subject which occupied them so constantly,
and with which every other cogitation or contemplation contrived to
mingle itself in an unaccountable manner, on which he did not care
to reason, and against which he did not attempt to strive. What did
it matter now? He might be ever so much engrossed, and no effort at
self-control or self-conquest would be called for; the feelings he
cherished unchecked could not harm any one--could not harm himself now.
There was great relief; great peace in that thought,--no strife for him
to enter on, no struggle in which his suffering body and weary mind
must engage. The end would be soon with him now; and while he waited
for it, he might love this bright young girl with all the power of his
heart.
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