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"What!" and in an instant she had left her position against the
mantelpiece, and was leaning over the table at the corner where he
sat, her face close to his, her eyes on his eyes, her hot breath
on his cheeks--"You dare to talk of killing him, of doing him the
slightest injury! You dare to lift your hand against my Lionel! Look
here, Geoffrey Ludlow: you have been good and kind and generous to
me,--have loved me, in your fashion--deeply, I know; and I would let us
part friends; but I swear that if you attempt to wreak your vengeance
on Lionel Brakespere, who has done you no harm--how has he injured
you?--I will be revenged on you in a manner of which you little dream,
but which shall break your heart and spirit, and humble your pride to
the dust. Think of all this, Geoffrey Ludlow--think of it. Do nothing
rashly, take no step that will madden me, and drive me to do something
that will prevent your ever thinking of me with regret, when I am far
away."
There was a softness in her voice which touched a chord in Geoffrey
Ludlow's breast. The fire faded out of his eyes; his hands, which had
been tight-clenched, relaxed, and spread out before him in entreaty;
he looked up at Margaret through blinding tears, and in a broken voice
said,
"When you are far away! O, my darling, my darling, you are not going to
leave me? It cannot be,--it is some horrible dream. To leave me, who
live but for you, whose existence is bound up in yours! It cannot be.
What have I done?--what can you charge me with? Want of affection, of
devotion to you? O God, it is hard that I should have to suffer in this
way! But you won't go, Margaret darling? Tell me that--only tell me
that."
She shrank farther away from him, and seemed for a moment to cower
before the vehemence and anguish of his appeal; but the next her face
darkened and hardened, and as she answered him, the passion in her
voice was dashed with a tone of contempt.
"Yes, I will leave you," she said,--"of course I will leave you. Do you
not hear me? Do you not understand me? I have seen him, I tell you, and
every thing which is not him has faded out of my life. What should I do
here, or any where, where he is not? The mere idea is absurd. I have
only half lived since I lost him, and I could not live at all now that
I have seen him again. Stay here! not leave _you!_ stay _here!_" She
looked round the room with a glance of aversion and avoidance, and went
on with increasing rapidity: "You have never understood me. How should
you? But the time has come now when you must try to understand me, for
your own sake; for mine it does no matter--nothing matters now."
She was standing within arm's-length of him, and her face was turned
full upon him: but she did not seem to see him. She went on as though
reckoning with herself, and Geoffrey gazed upon her in stupefied
amazement; his momentary rage quenched in the bewilderment of his
anguish.
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