Artists -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction
What was it that caused him to lie awake at night, tossing from side
to side on his hot pillow, ever before him the deep-violet eyes, the
pallid face set in masses of deep-red hair, the slight frail figure?
What was it that made his heart beat loudly, his breath come thickly,
his whole being tingle with a strange sensation--now ecstatic delight,
now dull blank misery? Not philanthropy, I trow. The superintendents
of boys' reformatories and refuges for the houseless poor may, in
thinking over what good they have achieved, enjoy a comfortable amount
of self-satisfaction and proper pride; but I doubt if the feeling
ever rises to this level of excitement. Not much wonder if Geoffrey
himself, suffering acutely under the disease, knew not, or refused to
avow to himself, any knowledge of the symptoms. Your darling child,
peacefully sleeping in his little bed, shall show here and there an
angry skin-spot, which you think heat or cold, or any thing else,
until the experienced doctor arrives, and with a glance pronounces it
scarlet-fever. Let us be thankful, in such a case, that the prostrate
patient is young. Geoffrey's was as dire a malady, and one which,
coming on at forty years of age, usually places the sufferer in a
perilous state. It was called Love; not the ordinary sober inclination
of a middle-aged man, not that thin line of fire quivering amongst a
heap of ashes which betokens the faded passion of the worn and sated
voluptuary; this was boy-love, calf-love, mad-spooniness--any thing
by which you can express the silliest, wildest, pleasantest, most
miserable phase of human existence. It never comes but once to any
one. The _caprices_ of the voluptuary are as like to each other as
peas or grains of sand; the platonic attachments or the sentimental
_liaisons_ indulged in by foolish persons of both sexes with nothing to
do may have some slight shade of distinction, but are equally wanting
in backbone and _vis_. Not to man or woman is it given to be ever
twice "in love"--a simple phrase, which means every thing, but needs
very little explanation. My readers will comprehend what I want to
convey, and will not require my feeble efforts in depicting the state.
Suffice it to say, that Geoffrey Ludlow, who had hitherto gone through
life scot-free, not because he was case-hardened, not because he was
infection-proof, or that he had run no risks, but simply from the
merest chance,--now fell a victim to the disease, and dropped powerless
before its attack.
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