Artists -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction
"A little nothing! Listen, Mr. Ludlow! You have saved me from death,
and you are kind enough to wish me, under your auspices, to begin life
again. Hear, first, what was my former life. Hear it, and then see the
soundness of your well-intentioned plans. My father was an infantry
captain, who was killed in the Crimea. After the news came of his
death, my mother's friends, wealthy tradespeople, raised a subscription
to pay her an annuity of 150_l_, on condition of her never troubling
them again. She accepted this, and she and I went to live for cheapness
at Tenby in Wales. There was no break in my life until two years since,
when I was eighteen years old. Up to that time, school, constant
practice at home (for I determined to be well educated), and attendance
on my mother, an invalid, formed my life. Then came the usual
character--without which the drama of woman's life is incomplete--a
man!"
She hesitated for a moment, and looked up as Geoffrey Ludlow leaned
forward, breathing thickly through his nostrils; then she continued--
"This one was a soldier, and claimed acquaintance with a dead comrade's
widow; had his claim allowed, and came to us morning, noon, and night.
A man of the world, they called him; could sit and talk with my mother
of her husband's virtues and still-remembered name, and press my hand,
and gaze into my eyes, and whisper in my ear whenever her head was
turned."
"And you?"
"And I! What would a girl do, brought up at a sleepy watering-place,
and seeing nobody but the curate or the doctor? I listened to his every
word, I believed his every look; and when he said to me, 'On such a
night fly with me,' I fled with him without remorse."
Geoffrey Ludlow must have anticipated something of this kind, and yet
when he heard it, he dropped his head and shook it, as though under the
effect of a staggering blow. The action was not unnoticed by Margaret.
"Ah," said she, in low tones and with a sad smile, "I saw how your
schemes would melt away before my story."
This time it was his hand that came out and caught hers in its grip.
"Ah, wait until you have heard the end, now very close at hand. The
old, old story: a coming marriage, which never came, protracted and
deferred now for one excuse, now for another--the fear of friends, the
waiting for promotion, the--ah, every note in the whole gamut of lies!
And then--"
"Spare yourself and me--I know enough!"
"No; hear it out! It is due to you, it is due to me. A sojourn in
Italy, a sojourn in England--gradual coolness, final flight. But such
flight! One line to say that he was ruined, and would not drag me
down in his degradation--no hope of a future meeting--no provision
for present want. I lived for a time by the sale of what he had given
me,--first jewels, then luxuries, then--clothes. And then, just as I
dropped into death's jaws, you found me."
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