British -- China -- Fiction; English fiction -- 20th century; Fantasy fiction
She woke heavy-eyed. After a long wandering in the hot mists of
early morning by the reedy shore of the Lake and among the creeks
and cliffs and waterfalls, she came clearly to see herself isolated.
Since the first morning when she had explored the valley with Ambrose
and encountered the swans, she alone (Ambrose not for the moment
considered) had made progress in experience. The others, she perceived,
had all abandoned the experience which they had begun, content to
remain on the fringe, to let it go ungrasped, uncomprehended. They
had stopped short on the threshold of the valley, on the threshold
of a dream. She had entered the dream. To her life was yielding up
secrets. She looked back from the dome of an emerald hill and saw the
vermilion roof, with its horns and glittering dragons, of the Yellow
Emperor’s Pavilion, in the crescent of the bamboo grove. They were
all sleeping there, except Ambrose, the recorder of other people’s
experiences, whose white-clad figure she saw in the far distance down
by the Lake. They were sleeping, while she woke and strove with what
life was offering to the mind. She would keep them there until she had
finished, until the valley and its denizens had no more to give, for
it is the privilege of those who wrestle with the stuff of experience
that they should sacrifice the others. Looking up, she saw that a great
mass of clouds in the east was thrusting its arms about the valley. An
encircling wall seemed to shut her off from the nearly forgotten world
of Europe. It made it easier not to go back.
Ambrose pictures her standing on the top of her hill like a fluttering
flag. Lonely she must have been. It is lonely, he remarks, to be in the
advanced posts in the matter of human experience.
36
In the afternoon, lying idle and alone on the verandah, she reflected
that she had not spoken to Terence Fitzgerald for a long time. She
could not remember that he had looked at her with hate or resentment.
He had been aloof, but that was his habit, and it might be that still
he was bound to her in spirit, not resenting her actions. So she went
to her bedroom, put on a twelfth-century robe of amber with a design
of black and red butterflies, sped across the lawn, and slid through
the bamboo-forest, that was heavy and dark with summer, to the tiled
watchtower.
She climbed the stairs, peering through little windows that she
passed, and came to his blue-tiled room. It was littered with painting
apparatus. He sat at the window, in his bard-like, painter’s gown, with
his hands clasped, looking sadly out over the quivering bamboo grove.
When she came in his great eyes filled with fire and his voice rang
with joy.
“At last the high gods have told you to come?” Then reproach shadowed
his face. “But in that alien dress. This is not Lychnis, not my divine
inspiration materialized.”
“I have abandoned the other dress,” she replied, “for ever.”
“For ever!”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account